Him Or Her (TaeNie & YoonLice)

97

"I will..."
       I shook my head as the thought hasn't composed within me yet.

"I can't continue anything between us, I mean this. And I will stop, like literally stop gripping on whatever we are holding together. You're not blaming me for my decisions but I am. I am having so much just by helping him before, that night, just by being a good Samaritan to him for a good one year yet I still experienced the same thing with him, I can't...I can't continue it anymore."
       I don't know, but there's no left part me that says I should still help him through.

She leaned forward and rested her elbows on the desk. And spoke.

"But you just said you love him."
       And with a hard statement.

"Loving him isn't enough for me to keep him."
        I answered with a very deep voice.

I mean it...
I really mean what I just said.

"We don't always have to keep what we want, what we need to keep is what we need. And I don't think I'll need him, he's the one who needs me yet he lost it, he lost the vision of seeing the right point of everything. This is his third life, he had wasted the first and second one, he should've back that vision but I won't take the risk of helping him again if that means he'll think he can do anything just because someone is helping him for the second time. It's enough, everything is enough."
       That's when I heard her sigh...a sigh of relief.

"He needs me...but he isn't capable of keeping me."
        Last words before a nurse came...

"Ma'am? Here's the aid. I included cotton, tissues and gloves."
        The nurse stated and informed.

Chaeyoung thanked and I smiled at the nurse as she bowed before leaving.

"Well said, hope you can keep those words because as to what I know, you're a stubborn one."
       It was supposed to be a joke, a serious joke that throws a fact.

"Let me clean that now."
       I nodded and the next minutes...

I just kept biting my lips.

"What the...Chaey! Be gentle!"

        I yelled but pushed Chaey as I saw a figure standing next to the ajar door.

"What!?"
       Chaeyoung questioned in frustration and I signaled her that the door is open.

"Can't you knock?"
       Chaeyoung asked as she recognized the person.

"Sorry, I thought you're alone."
       He seems nervous...

He's the doctor who said to be the one who operated me.

"Well, I'm not."
       Chaeyoung mouthed with a disdainful look.

"Have you seen it?"
       He looked at me as I asked...

"S-seen what? I-I just h-heard you...umm..."
        Chaeyoung's eyes widen upon realization and mine squinted as I process whatever it is I need to decipher...

"Heard me what?"
       I asked, still not sure about what he's thinking.

"Oh my fucking gosh, Park Jimin. I am losing my respect for you, what are you thinking? She's asking if you saw it? Saw her...because I'm cleaning her wound, and she's lifting her shirt earlier so she's asking if you saw it! How disgusting, what were you thinking!"
        That's when I felt so innocent...

"Ahh, I see. I-I'm sorry. I hacen't seen anything, that's why I...I don't know."
         Chaeyoung rolled her eyes and I froze just right there, sitting.

Silence filled the office by a whole minute and it's Chaeyoung who broke it.

"Why are you here anyway?"
         She asked.

"Ahh, I was just about to if...what happened? I heard from a senior nurse earlier that Miss Manoban had been in a trouble with you and the patient you operated before and earlier."
       He pointed me with respect as he asked.

"Ahh, very long story. I feel so tired just by remembering it."
      Chaey answered before throwing the stuffs she used.

"Okay then, but the two of you are fine, right?"
      He asked while taking a seat next to the desk.

"I think? I'm not sure about her."
      Chaey pointed me.

I eyed her.

"I'm fine."
       And spoke.

Then just to shrug the topic off, I asked something out of it.

"Anyway, haven't you been in a trouble because of me yet?"
      His brows furrowed upon hearing the question...

"Ahh, you mean because I operated you? Well, honestly the administration just talked to me yesterday and they want to suspend me for three days, but it's fine. Experience, a rare experience."
      He answered with a smile, not just his lips but also his eyes.

And that made me wonder and gaze to him a bit deeper than I should.

"I can't stand what's happening."
      Until Chaeyoung acted like there's a sudden fling forming.

"I'm sorry, I'll take care of it. Don't worry."
       I answered and he just bowed his head as a sign of gratitude.

"What's your name, by the way?"
       And asked to know, of course.

"Jimin, Park Jimin. Her cousin, older cousin."
        He answered and I gave Chaeyoung an eye who's smiling.

"Now I know how Yoongi felt when he saw the kne who saved him. Grateful..."