Like Objects (BxB)

Twenty Six: Nord

Warning: Sensitive topic up ahead. I do not intend to offend anyone, however the next chapter will be upsetting for some. You have been warned.

Trigger warning: m*scarr*age

I'd seen Hikari's text message but ignored her.

I didn't care what happened to him.

Coming home from work was an experience that was compared to leaving hell for brief periods of rest.

Or at least that's what my father used to say.
But now it felt like I didn't want to go home.

Noticing the car was pulling up outside one of the smaller bars, I figured I'd get a quick drink before heading home to more drama.

The place was busy as always when I entered and I quickly found myself with two drinks in my hands.

A few of the female toys had come over asking if they could serve me. The simple answer was no.

I didn't need them.
The night seemed to drag on and when I returned home, it was half ten.
As soon as I entered I noticed Hikari had been awaiting for me in the lobby.
A frown resting on her face.
" Master you're late."

I couldn't help but huff " I needed time away from home."
She looked hurt, eyes glistening.

" You know, these things are very delicate matters that when urgency is requested..."
I rolled my eyes " Scold me all you want Hikari, I don't..."
" I dare you to roll your eyes at me sir, when you hear that you have lost something valuable sir!"

What?
I frowned at her " Huh!?"
She scowled at me " A child sir. You've lost a child."

I couldn't help but laugh " What? Bullshit Hikari! What are you..."

" Your husband is locked in the bathroom right now, refusing to speak to anyone sir!"

I growled feeling my anger bubble" If he did this intentionally..."
She glared at me " He was as clueless as anything. He hadn't even noticed! Until we pointed it out!"

My body felt cold, I clenched my fists.... And paced back and forth in the lobby.
" Th...that can't be right! He can't be! It shouldn't... Hikari he wasn't pregnant... I fucking held the pregnancy stick last night... He couldn't have been!"

She frowned " The pregnancy test said he wasn't, so he didn't see a point to discuss further testing with a doctor... Its not his fault..."
I clenched my teeth " I told the son of a bitch to see a doctor! He was being weird all week!!"
She glowered at me stomping her foot.

" MASTER WHITE! Light is locked away absolutely stunned at this new information if anything. Put your differences aside for a minute! Put your anger and put your selfishness aside. Don't ask him any questions! Don't blame him! But for gods sake can't you go and comfort him... He's lost a child."

I pouted to myself. But then... I hated the realisation more.

Knocking at his bedroom door his voice was as soft and clear as ever "Come in.."
When I entered he was changing into his night clothes and was mostly dressed " Oh Hi, you're home."
I nodded silently... Noticing his Jolty movements and how he avoided my eyes.
I sighed to myself coming inside and shutting the door.
" Light... Is there something you wanna tell me..."
He hummed " oh not really... I just found out that I was pregnant till this evening."
I clenched my fists at his apathetic tone.

I exhaled lowering my gaze on his soft features. He looked pale... Ill even, his eyes were rimmed in red and his face seemed void of any glow.

I bit my lip.
"How are you doing, I mean... Hikari said..."
He scoffed "Miscarriages are common... Like super common. I just... Didn't realise that was gonna happen to us so early... Hikari's just worried because she thinks I'm sad... I'm not... I didn't even know it was there... So y'know... I've been drinking, not eating and taking drugs like a fucking idiot."
I stormed up to him, irritated by his nonchalance and grabbed ahold of his shoulders turning him to face me.
His eyes were hard as if they were trying to shut something out.

I couldn't help it, why didn't he give a shit!?
All this time he had been carrying our baby and all of us were none the wiser!
I was confused and angry at everything.
" Why are you.... not..."
My body was over flooding with reminders of all the shit I'd been saying to him... And the feelings he'd been probably going through and I blamed myself....
My eyes had begun watering and I bit my lip hard...

Words struggled to escape " Why... Are you OK with this!?"

He inhaled sharply trying to pull out of my grip.
His eyes filled with tears too almost instantly as he cleared his throat.

" I... Didn't want to... Make a big deal of it... Um... Because of what I mentioned before... I mean....."
His voice broke in between words.
" They're supposed to be... Really
.... Common."
I growled recognising his pain and took hold of him. As if I'd given him permission he finally sniffed out a cry, gasping out and bursting into sobs at my neck.
Tears escaped me as I held onto him, squeezing him to me... And he gasped and inhaled eventually just crying and wailing.

All I could do was apologise...
I must have said it a thousand times.
He cried out loudly into space as I held him in my arms cradling him on the floor.
" I'm sorry... I'm sorry...I'm so sorry..."

When he finally fell asleep in my arms I took him to our bedroom...holding him carefully... He would probably still be drained... But I carefully placed him onto our bed and began preparing for sleep.

I couldn't hate myself now, more than ever.... Knowing that potentially I was the reason... We lost our baby.

-Authors Note-

I chose to do this chapter from Nord's Perspective because we often forget to take into consideration what our partners are going through, especially at the most fragile points in our lives.

I didn't want to do an injustice to women by writing this scene from Lights perspective as each life is unique, each situation is unique and to write about the loss of a baby is especially personal.

CatS