A Furious Chick

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Katherine

I walked into my house.

"Brian?" I called out. I had Chinese takeout in my hand and I went into the kitchen to put it on the table.

Brian told me today that he was sending the girls to Dom and Letty's house for a few days so we can just have some bonding time. He left work early to set up something for me. But the house was quiet. I placed the Chinese food on the table and looked at the mail. My phone began to buzz with text notifications. It was from the group chat.

Letty: Never thought you would do that to Brian!

Tej: What happened?

Letty: Katherine had a miscarriage and kept it from Brian

Tej: WHAT?!

Rome: Oh shit.

Kaleb: lay the fuck off. Give her a chance to explain.

Alina: she was trying to avoid him being broken!

Letty: by lying?!

Alina: you don't think she's hurting? She also lost a child!

Letty: I didn't see a hint of pain in her face in the last three days. They are married, she should have been honest.

Kaleb: you lot are not going to bad mouth my sister. We've all done terrible things. Give her a chance to explain.

Alina: I agree with Kaleb.

I put my phone down and saw the hospital bill envelope open and the bill out. My mouth dropped. I tried to call Brian. He didn't answer. I tried three more times and I guess he blocked me because the call wouldn't even go through. Then Dom texted me.

Dom: give him space, give him time.

I put my phone down on the table and went upstairs. I didn't want to feel. I can't deal with this right now. I took a long shower and sort of spaced out. I simply put on a bra and panties when I heard the front door open. My heart fluttered. I listened hard to hear if it was Brian. It wasn't. It was Alina. She was in pajamas, her hair messy.

"Are you okay?" She asked.

"I thought I told you to fuck off." I rolled my eyes.

I pulled back my blankets and sat on my bed.

"Katherine."

"Join them." I snapped. "Everyone hates me. Join them."

"I'm not their best friend." Alina replied. "Katherine, I love you. Let me be here for you."

"Alina, leave. I don't want to interact with humans. Ever. Get the fuck out."

I laid down and got under the blankets. I turned off my lamp. I didn't close my eyes because I was scared to see images of my husband's face. Alina moved around for a second and then got in the bed with me. She wrapped her arms around me and snuggled up behind me.

Time passed and both of us didn't move a muscle. I felt everything. Everything I didn't want to feel. I didn't want to feel the guilt, the depression, the pain of never getting to know that child. My body gave up holding it together and I started bawling.

"I'm not okay." I sobbed, rolling over and cuddling Alina.

She ran her fingers through my hair. "I know, baby."