•Bermuda Triangle• Yoonminkook

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Jungkook's POV

"Hello hello!" I heard when I stepped out of the front door. "What got you like that?" Yugyeom asked me and wrapped his hand around my neck. He was as tall as I, so his hand wrapped around me easily. His hair had dark brown color and he always wore a really kind smile. The facial characteristics that dragged your attention was his slightly square chin and his thin eyes.

"I told you I don't know!" I said and threw his arm off my shoulder. We started walking towards the bank. "Do you think it's healthy to live with your ex?" I finally asked him and he giggled.

"That again?" Yugyeom said. "What did Yoongi do to you again?" He asked but didn't sound serious. He had met Yoongi, when we were still a couple, and they had gotten along just fine. That was a big con for me, because I couldn't lie to him about Yoongi. I couldn't exaggerate things and hear the words of encouragement I wanted. I had to tell him the naked truth, that didn't sound, or seem really bad to an 'outsider'.

"He looks at me like a beaten puppy!" I blurted out. "I can't stand it. I want my space! Is this how things are going to be until I finish college?"

"What exactly bothers you?" Yugyeom asked.

"What bothers me? I'll tell you what bothers me! It's suffocating to know that if I ever go and hook up with someone he'll be waiting for me at home and stare at me with this sad look of his. It's suffocating that I can't skip a class or two without having to hear his preaching, like he is my mother goddamnit!" I had stopped walking in the middle of the street and my voice was raising in tone.

"Jungkook keep walking and calm down!"Yugyeom hissed.

"I can't kiss someone without remembering him. Without feeling guilty for what I'm doing. I can't stand it!" I almost whispered as we started walking again.

"Why don't you move out?" He asked me.

"I've told you before-" I said.

"Yeah right, your parents allowed you to live in Seoul only under his superstition. At least until you graduate... I forgot." He completed my sentence.

"It's okay... and apart from that what I want is to go and live on my own. I don't think I could find and rent a flat with the money my parents provide me and still be able to keep me alive!"

"You could a get a job, like he has..." Yugyeom muttered under his breath.

"I'm still studying!" I interrupted him.

"How did Yoongi pay the rent?" Yugyeom asked and I nervously bit my lip.

"The scholarship gave him a small amount of money... and he did some tutoring". I explained.

"So... that means he worked-"

"On whose side are you?" I spat out angrily. Yugyeom patted my head.

"You're such a spoiled brat!" He said. This was usually our inside joke but a piece of my brain was telling me that this time he was serious.

"How did we get here?" I asked him puzzling over the turn our conversation had taken.

"What do want to do?" Yugyeom asked me completely ignoring my question.

"I don't know... I'm hoping that the trip will clear my head a bit." I admitted. "Wait here a minute". I said and went to the ATM to extract the amount of money needed for the tickets etc. I returned and kept walking side to side with Yugyeom.

"You know that he loves you right?" He suddenly asked me.

"I don't think so. I simply believe that he's obsessed over something that belongs to the past now!" I replied.

"You really know nothing!" He sighed disappointed. I turned to look at him with a questioning stare. "He cares about you-"

"I didn't want him to care about me!" I barked. "That's exactly what I didn't want!"

Yugyeom didn't answer. I was sure that he wanted to say something. Not just one thing, but many, but he didn't speak a word. Maybe I didn't want him to say anything else. Maybe what he had said was enough for me. He was being honest and objective and on an other day I might had appreciated it, but at that moment it wasn't what I wanted to hear.

"Why do you feel guilty then?" He asked me after a long cold silence. "If that's how you truly feel, if what you really want to achieve is be free, then why do you care about how he feels? Weren't you the one who broke that relationship? Then why do you feel bad?" I didn't reply. "He's not stopping you from hooking up with whoever you want. He's not saying anything. And even if he did say something, that is none of his business right? You're are the one seeing all these. Yoongi is prepared to move on. Maybe you aren't. I haven't even seen you flirting with someone these four months. You can't accuse Yoongi for that! He's not stopping you is he?"

"I need to go." I said and he stopped.

"Fine. Remember to say that we'll be sharing a room okay?" He asked me and I nodded. He didn't continue. He turned around and got ready to walk away.

"I am ready to move on!" I said and he stopped.

"Good for you". He simply said and left.

No what Yugyeom had said wasn't wrong. And he wasn't jealous or something our relationship was clearly friendly. He had a lovely girlfriend and I was totally gay and not into him. We had met on the very first day of college and we got along really well. So he didn't have a reason to lie to me. What he had said was right, and deep inside I knew it. I just don't dare to admit it.

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