I wake up to Andy moving stuff around.
"What are you doing?" I ask him.
"I'm getting the final things together," Andy says.
I feel my heart drop, remembering they're leaving today.
"When do you have to be at the airport?" I ask.
"Half hour,"
"Oh, when does the flight come?"
"An hour,"
I have to say goodbye to my best friend in an hour. Have to say goodbye to the guys.
The half hour feels so short, we're now at the airport sitting around.
"Racheal I'm so sorry things have to end this way," Jake takes me aside to talk.
"I'm still incredibly mad.. But Jake, I'm happy for you guys, I'm happy you guys are going, your dreams can come true, hell you'll be living the dream," I feel tears fall down my face.
"Thank you," Jake hugs me tight.
He pulls away from the hug, placing his hands on my cheeks, looking me in the eyes.
"I really like you Racheal, I wish it could've worked out," He speaks softly, meaning it.
"I wish it could've worked too, but maybe some time in the future,"
Jake kisses my forehead. I go and hug Ashley, Jinxx, and CC, saying goodbye to them.
"I'll miss you guys so much," I cry.
"Awh you'll see us again, when we're super famous, you'll see us everywhere," Ashley gets cocky.
"I'm sure I will," I giggle, smiling at them.
I hear on the speaker saying for the flight the guys are leaving on is ready to board in five minutes.
I walk to Andy, he holds my hands looking down at me, smiling.
"Why are you smiling?" I ask him, my voice cracking.
"Because, I know this isn't goodbye Racheal, we'll see each other again,"
"Who knew, 18 years of friendship and then you leave me," I laugh gently.
Andy chuckles and hugs me tight. I hug him tight too, I never want to let go of him but I know I have to.
"Thank you for always supporting me, being there for me, thank you for all the years of being my best friend, I promise I will text and call you everyday," Andy whispers.
He pulls away from the hug, I go on my tippy toes and kiss his cheek.
I look behind him to see Scout walking up.
"There's your girlfriend," I sigh, looking at him.
He looks me in the eyes.
"Dry those tears, I promise we'll see each other again," He wipes tears away from my cheeks.
I hug him tight, letting him go.
"Bye Andy,"
"Bye Racheal," He kisses my forehead.
"Hey Andy," I say without thinking.
"Yeah?"
"I love you," I tell him, I finally tell him.
Andy smiles. "I love you too,"
He turns around and starts walking. I frown, I know Andy only means it as a best friend kind of I love you, I know he doesn't love me the way I love him.
I go over to the other guys and talk with them until we hear the speaker say they're ready to board.
"Bye," I feel the tears rush down my face.
"Bye, until we see you again," CC says.
I watch as they walk away from me until they're out of sight.
Andy's POV
I open my lungs dear
I sing this song at funerals... no rush.
These lyrics heard a thousand times, just plush.
A baby boy you've held so tightly,
This pain it visits almost nightly
Missing hotel beds, I feel your touch.
I will await dear, a patience of eternity, my crush.
A universe so still.
No rust.
No dust will ever grow on this frame,
One million years, and I will say your name.
I love you more than I can ever scream.
We booked our flight those years ago,
I said I loved you as I left you.
Regrets still haunt my hollow head,
But I promised you that I will see you again, again.
I sit here and smile dear.
I smile because I think of you and I blush.
These bleeding hollow dials, this fuss.
A fuss is made of miles and travel
Roadways are but stones and gravel.
A bleeding heart can conquer every crush.
We booked our flight those years ago
You said you loved me as you left me.
Regrets still haunt your saddened head,
But I promised you that I will see you.
We booked our flight those years ago
I said I loved you as I left you
Regret's no longer in my head,
But I promised you and now I'm home again, again, again, I'm home again, again, again.
I'm home again.
I write down lyrics on the plane. I only think of Racheal while writing, I don't think of Scout, I don't think of the guys, my life problems, the album, the record producer, not even the turbulence on the plane. I only think of Racheal.
She told me she loves me, but in a best friend way. I told her I love her, I wish she loved me the way I love her.
God I'll miss her so much, I already do. But I believe we will see each other again, hopefully very soon.
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Beautiful Remains
Fanfiction"Because I'm afraid that if I see you cry in front of me, I'll apologize and beg for you to be mine, but I can't do that," "Why not?" "I can't hurt you more than I already have,"
