Shattered

Chapter 10; right now

Song for this Chapter: ‘human’ by Christina Perri and ‘You & I’ by One Direction

Miley’s p.o.v

“What’s wrong?” I asked placing my hand on his knee.

“I didn’t realize that you or any of your crew would be there. You can’t know…that’s why I killed myself off in the first place.” He yelled frustrated.

“Jason, it-“

“No, call me Justin!” He screamed pushing my hand off of him. “Please just be quite until we get there!” He said pulling at his hair.

“Okay” I said looking out the window. I have never seen him so upset…he was really mad. I honestly didn’t know what to do with myself. I was so confused and frustrated myself. Looking over at him, I realized how much I had missed him. Yeah, maybe this wasn’t the Jason I remembered. I had never been a big fan of being around him when he was angry. But he was alive and sitting right next to me. Obviously there was something that was bothering him and he needed me to be here for a reason.

After a little while of a silent, bumpy drive. He parked in the middle of the woods and got out of the car. I did the same, following a few steps behind him. After a little walk we arrived at this small, old abandoned cabin. Jason grabbed a key from under the matt and unlocked the door.

“Come on” He said opening the door for me to go inside. Walking inside I sat at the couch waiting for him to say something.

“I honestly don’t even know what to say.” He sighed sitting at the coffee table in front of me.

“Don’t say anything. We don’t have to talk.” I said leaning forward.

“I just, I honestly wasn’t expecting this.” He said distort at the situation.

“Me either. I have mourned you twice already, please don’t make me do it again.” I said, my voice cracking.

“It’s not that simple” He sighed and rubbed his face.

“Trust me I know.” I laughed lightly.

“All I did was think about you. I knew if I stayed they would get to you. They would use my weakness against me, and hurt you. I know you hate it when I am so over protective but I have my reasoning. I mean look at everything you have been through since I have come along. I just wish…I never would have met you.” He said pulling at his hair.

“Yeah…I’m sorry I have brought you so much pain. Let’s not forget that it hasn’t been so simple for me either.” I sighed. “I chose this life a long time ago, before you. I knew what I was getting myself into. These would have happened either way, don’t blame yourself.” I said looking into his piercing eyes.

“I know…and I am sorry.” He said grabbing my hands. “I realize that this wasn’t my fault but…I didn’t imagine this for myself, let alone you.” He pulled me into his lap and wrapped his arms around me. I have been yearning for this embrace for a long time.  “I am so sorry” He whispered into my ear. He cradled me like I was his world.

“Jason” I whispered wrapping my arms tightly around him.

“What are we going to do?” He asked. He was obviously still frustrated.

“I don’t know…and I don’t care. I just want to be with you and away from the world, for right now.” I said rubbing my nose against his cheek.

My phone started ringing in my pocket. Great.

“What the fuck” Jason screamed. He became tense underneath me.

“Hold on” I said reaching for my phone. “It’s D…I need to tell him I am alright. I ran out of the house, he is probably worried.” I said holding his arm. I tried to soothe him.

“Fine” He said rolling his eyes, he was still tense.

“Hello” I said answering the phone.

“Miley? Where are you?” D asked sounding frantic.

“I am fine, and right now that is all you need to know.”

“Where are you?” He asked worried.

“You don’t need to do that” I said. “I will call later” I hung up the phone. I knew I could trust D, and he didn’t like when I was so short with him. Right now, the only thing that mattered was Jason.

“Sorry” I said after turning my phone off and throwing it on the couch.

“No more distractions” He said picking me up. I giggled out of surprise. “You are mine for the rest of the day.” He said whispering into my ear.

“Oh?” I said raising my eyebrows. Watching the smile spread across his face put my worries at ease. He mattered right now. No one could understand how much this man meant to me.

Maybe my worries will come back. Maybe reality will hit me. Maybe something will happen that will be out of Jason’s and I’s control. That just didn’t matter to me right now. I needed him in my life and I have spent to long running from those feelings. I have spent to long mourning over the fact that I would never see him again.

Right now, he was here and I was wrapped in his arms. I was going to cherish my every wakening moments with him for as long as I could.

Comment and vote! I may or may not update again tonight. I'd love to know what you think of this. xoxo