True to self

Part 99

Teyana told me last night she was pregnant, and i couldnt be more exited for her.

Hensley:Nah....i mean, i want to but i don't think i can mom 

Hattie:and why is that?(confused)

Hensley:Bryson and me been having sex for the pass months...and at first after my first miscarriage i thought it was because of chance beating my stomach in....but I'm starting to think its just me

When i had my first pregnancy with harley, i had complications with her coming out and all.

i thought something bad was going to happen to her, thats why I'm so thankful she is ok and healthy.

But after harley, its almost like i can't get pregnant again.

i thought it was brysons soldiers not working at first, but when i went to the doctor a while back they told me otherwise.

Hensley:Mom, after i had harley its almost been impossible for me to have kids again. I thought it was bryson, so i went to the doctor to check myself out and its me....the doctor told me that my tubes where the egg flows, something is blocking it...and sometimes whatever is blocking it may remove but then come back which makes it impossible for bryson egg to flow and continue the process of getting me pregnant....i want to have a baby so bad especially with bryson....i want Harley to have a baby brother or sister.....but i don't know

i looked down at the baby clothes, thinking.

i felt tears coming to my eyes, because it was emotional for me to talk about.

my mom came over to me, and wrapped her arms around me.

Hattie:Baby listen....soemthings happen for a reason...maybe you and bryson need to grow together, before you can grow with a family....you and him just got back together. Take some time for yallselves.....and then worry about having a baby later

I knew my mom was right, but i really did want a baby now.

i don't have to go on tour, and start making my broadway show till 3 months from now...

But bryson is going on tour soon, and like last time i was pregnant while he was away was a total of to much for me.

All in all i do want to have another baby, especially by him.

And i want one now to be honest.

My body just won't cooperate with me.

Hensley:it just makes me sad seeing my friends doing things i always thought me and bryson would do.....Like me and him go together first, and fell in love.....then we broke up....Autumn started a family with quees and now is engaged, Hazel and tae moved in together, and Teyana having a baby with Tae....its like they living my dream life all in one