Why Would It Be Me?

Fifty Four

(Texts between Normani and Lauren)

Mani (5:55pm)
We didn't see you today, Mila said you were back in Miami for Christmas? She said she hasn't seen you since you were in NY last week? What's up Laur?

Laur (6pm)
Oh yeah I am, just been at home all day, well week ha. Just enjoying the family you know? I can do that as well as hang with you guys

Mani (6:02pm)
Oh wow. Don't jump down my throat Lauren. We haven't seen you since summer, not really, Ally is actually becoming extremely unbearable, and no one said you couldn't do both the simple fact is you're not doing both, are you even hanging with you family? I saw Taylor yesterday, and Chris on Monday, you literally live in your bedroom, what is going on?? I have Mila texting me asking if you're ok?

Laur (6:06pm)
Funny, Ally said the same about you. Ok so I'm living in my bedroom, it's just nice to have my time, you know? Have time off from it all, since the tour ended, there's so much happening, this is the first time in over a year I finally get to myself and I'm sorry I haven't been present with you guys but I need my Lauren time ok??

Mani (6:10pm)
That is literally all I needed Lauren, Ally is a liar, she worships me. Isn't it a good thing that everyone wants some Jauregui? I thought that's what you wanted, to be out there, known, and have people hear you, have your say in the world and do what you do best?

Laur (6:15pm)
Yes of course, I like being able to help people, having this position in the world does that and I am grateful. It's just management are on me all the time, and then I come to see you guys and I get shit from Dinah and Camz is being weird and I hate it, you guys are my getaway, my peace, my fucking rocks! And that's changing Mani, I don't like it

Mani (6:18pm)
Why are they on you? They have never been 'on you'. I'm sorry for being the way I have been and I know Ally is too, we love you, you've just been weird recently Lo, as for DJ, you know why she's mad, and you know why Camila is being how she is, you throw your fame ect into it, everything is ten times worse

Laur (6:21pm)
I guess I've blown up? Can't even walk round Miami at the minute, it's weird, I'm used to Europe and Brazil being crazy, not my hometown, and they have this idea that my personal life should stay personal and all this "goofy" stuff needs to tone down. I'm tired Mani. I know, I get them I do.

Mani (6:24pm)
I'm seeing management as a problem here? They're the reason you're going mad at Camren shippers? And why you've been acting so weird?

Laur (6:30pm)
Yes, well mainly, I'm not ready to say 'hi I'm Lauren and I'm gay', not now, I think, I don't think I accept it myself? I think I just love a girl, nothing more, I love Camila, I'm in love with Mani and I'm fucking it up aren't I?

Mani (6:32pm)
I think you should talk to Mila, like actually talk to her Lauren, none of that stupid dictating shit you do when you're backed into a corner. She loves you just as much as you love her, you know she has that napkin framed right? She has this weird mini Lern Jergi shrine in a box in her room, she weird, major weird, but not creepy weird, just she loves you ok? She's a weird little keeper, so man the fuck up Jauregui and talk about your issues with your girlfriend you ghost like lesbian

Laur (6:35pm)
I was on board, now I hate you.

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A/N: Thank you guys for reading and sticking with this, I appreciate it massively :D