Temptation

chapter 44

i didnt bother to mention the constant rollercoaster ride that wont stop because that will all just keep going. im just afriad that my heart will soon stop if i fallto hard for him, that one day it'll stop and i wont be able to write about him in the journal the way that i am now. 

A sudden buzzing noise along with a a ringing sounds from across the room. i emmediatly shut the journal quickly and place it back under the window seat where it was. 

I see Harry's arm reach across to the bedside table to retrieve his phone. his body stays still as he places the phone to his ear and speaks. "what?" his morning voice sounding clear but yet, raspy. 

"alright,...alright fuck, fine!" he says more sternly through the phone. he doesnt say anything else as he just presses end on his phone screen

his arm then reaches accross the other side of the bed where i was laying. he realizes im not there and his head shoots up and looks around the room.

"im over here!" i laugh as his head shoots towards in my direction, 

he smiles at me when he sits his body upward onto the bed. he rubs his eyes "what time is it?" he says while yawning.

i take my phone out from underneath me and click the home button to check the time. "its five thirty." 

"ugh! i should get going."  he stands from the bed and walks over to the beenbag chair, where he left his jacket and keys.

i look down at my hands. i thought he was staying, 

"can you stay?" i iask, sounding like a little kid asking for a candy bar.

"you want me here when the devil comes?" he tries to joke around.

"stop calling her that!" i scold him.

"okay, what about bit-"

"dont call her that either." i stop him before he could even finish his crude remark. "she's still my mother Harry." i say and look out of the window, the slight breeze making my hair blow into my face and i place the strands behind my ear.

i feel the window seat sink in and a slight warm air start to surround me when i know Harry has taken a seat right beside me.

"why do you want me here?" he surprsingly asks. 

im sure he would've thought why i would want him here. 

"i want you to be here with me when i tell her everything." i tell him and his gaze is now focused onto the wooded area outside of the window. 

"you really want to tell her everything?" his question surprises me. it almost seems like he doesnt want me to. 

"should i not?" i wonder, he doesn't answer. "Do you not want me to?" i try to ask again. 

"shes not the best at explaining." he almost whispers. his eyes coming up to meet mine just as they were moments ago. 

"i know." is all i say. 

"alright, but i have to get to my mums for a little while. dick head must have called her." he stands away from me, the air suddenly returning back to its regular cool temperature. 

"when will you be back?" i ask as he puts on one of his black boots and starts to tie the shoe strings together.

he stands up from the bed and grabs the light purple hoodie from my desk chair before tossing it to me. i qive him a questioning look and he smirks at me before walking closer. 

his lips brush over mine, making his minty breath fan over my face. "i'll be here when you talk to your mum, you'll be there when i talk to mine." he places a quick kiss on my lips before pulling away and retrieveing his keys off of the bed again.

"okay, we need to hurry! we only have a little over an hour until my mother comes home!" i yelp and leave the bedroom to run down the stairs and out of the front door. 

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we pull into the familiar large house's driveway. thw way Harry's jaw stiffens and his body posture changes, makes me realizes that he abosoluely dreads coming to this house. 

i cant help but think that everything that has happened so far is all of my fault. everything; all my fault. if i hadnt gone to that stupid party and went up those stupid stairs none of this..

"what are you thinking?" Harrys deep voice pulls me away from my thoughts.

"nothing." i smile to try to make it seem like it really was nothing,

"don't lie," he almost seems to whisper. his eyes look to be the most lightest green.

"im not," i lie again. he sighs and chooses to let it go. but i know, that later on he will just question me about it again. 

he opens the car door and i do the same. 

expecting him to knock at the from door, he does the opposite and just walks in as i follow behind him. 

"Harry?" Anne's voice calls from what seems to be coming from the black and white family room. 

he doesn't answer as he walks towards the way her voice was calling. 

i see more people than i have expected to be here.

Jeff, Anne and mr. Brown, are seated on the large black sofa. 

at the corner of my eye, i see tow other figures sitting down on two of the single arm chairs. 

my heart beats fast. 

its my mother. and my father. 

(i will be updating the new chapter tonight as well but it will be late :D)