The Point of No Return {sequel to The Arbitrary life of Avery Blake [teacher]}

The Point of No Return {sequel to The Arbitrary life of Avery Blake [teacher]}18

Chapter 18

A Worthily Deserved Prize- ‘Kim’

When I was younger, I would sit under the night sky and watch nature at its finest. When I would look up to the sky, all my loneliness, all my isolation, all my fears, everything, would just go away until it would just be me and this beautiful night sky.

I would lay my head against the grass, not worried about how my hair or clothes would be affected by the dirt. At first, I remember, I would close my eyes and let everything escape me. Then, when I finally would open my eyes, I would see the world as it truly was, without the death, without the pain of others, just the beauty of the world, deprived of all human interference’s.

I would gaze up at the stars and think of how I could relate to them. The stars, to me, always seemed to be separated from the rest. They simply floated there, alone, until the time would come and they would explode. But that aside, they were truly beautiful. They were colourless, not quite white, and not quite silver. Some even showed red or orange. They sparkled as though without the least care in the world (or…universe).

I then would look over to moon. It seemed warm and inviting although it was the complete opposite…cold. It stood there, held only by gravity. How long was it to live for? Only god knew.

I felt connected on those nights where I ignored past my worries and the coldness of the atmosphere and thought only about nature. I didn’t feel alone and depressed…always wondering where my parents were, if they were alive. I felt as though I could tackle anything, like the universe was mine.

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It must have been a week since I ran away. I had finally learnt how to control my emotions…it was the only way I knew how. I shut them all away.

All emotions had drained out of me, I felt nothing. But if I could feel something at that point, I would feel angry at myself for shutting everything away! I knew the emotions were there, they were simply buried behind my thick skull. I also knew it was inevitable to hide them forever, when they finally did come out, they were going to be ten times worse. But all I could do now was procrastinate and let myself be that hard, empty shell I was attempting to be.

It was as though the world had left me behind. But really, it was me who had left myself behind.

Then, out of the darkness below, I began to hear giggling.

What if someone had found me? Was I excited? Was I relieved? Or was I afraid?

‘Oh Lucas,’ a girl giggled, ‘isn’t the beach beautiful?’ she asked. Her voice was a bit hesitant, like he was her first love

‘Britanie, it really is beautiful, like you.’ A male voice said.

I looked down from the semi-cliff and saw a cute couple huddled together. For some reason, instead of being relieved that it was nobody I knew; I felt disappointed…I was still alone.

The cute, teenage couple simply sat on the sand, looking out at the beautifully mysterious ocean. It was as though they purely sat there to enjoy each other’s presence. They were madly in love, they just didn’t know it.

And that’s when I showed my first sign of emotion in days.

A tear rolled down my face as I imagined that couple replaced with Cole and myself. I truly began to believe that they were us. Except this version of us had no complications, no bad history, just a perfect life.

Did I really miss him? Was I prepared to start fresh with him? Was he even prepared to take me back? But one question mainly overtook my head; did I want him and me to be an us?