The Diary of a Struggling Genderfluid: 2

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I'm questioning everything lately.

I used to be quite self confident in helping people. Many times over people have come to me with questions and I've helped them to the absolute best of my ability, and I'm happy to do so. Not only on here, but irl too, at my school when people ask me for help on work and such.

It felt very good to help people. It still does.

Right now, I'm working on helping a certain person. We'll name them X. I've been struggling to help them for a long time. It's had its ups and downs, and I was very sure that I was helping.

But I mean, I don't know.

Nothing has progressed in a while. I thought it had, but then it just regressed, and got worse. X is pushing me away kind of and I don't know what to do...

I'm not going to not keep trying. It's just... I've been trying very hard for a long time, so to see my supposed progress being halted is almost frustrating. I'm not mad at X, they can't help how they feel, but I can't either. I'm trying to piece everything together on top of a lot of other stressors, and I want to help, but I find myself irritated and frustrated easily, and then I come off too harshly. I know I am like super harsh and blunt irl but it's just...

I don't want to do that with this person but it's not working.

Sigh.

Grey out. (neutral)