The Diary of a Struggling Genderfluid: 2

To be honest...

To be honest,
I haven't been doing okay.

A few weeks ago I was having suicidal thoughts and feelings again.

I've had no motivation for months.

I've gained weight.

Every day is a struggle to make it out of bed.

I fall asleep in school. I find myself paying attention less and less.

I procrastinate. Horribly.

I cry myself to sleep at least three nights a week. At least.

I get lonely easily.

I shove my face with food. I can't help it.

I break my eardrums blaring music.

I almost cry in school. New assignments make me literally want to break out in tears.

I cover it up with a smile.