Changed {Martin Garrix Fanfiction}

Chapter 53

Chapter Fifty Three - Goodbye

- Madeline's POV - 

This is it. It's our last day at this godforsaken summer camp. It's bittersweet, but for the most part, I'm ready to go home. I need to get out of this place and never come back. I actually cannot wait for my parents to get here this afternoon - that's how much I want to leave. 

For the past three days, I have been a mess. I have barely gotten out of bed. I've barely slept and ate anything. The only thing I have been remotely doing is crying. I have cried more in the past three days in my entire life. My head hurts. Hell, my heart hurts. 

I still haven't grasped what happened between Martin and I. I told him I was in love with him and he didn't say anything back. Martin never wants to see me again, which breaks my heart even more. I admitted the most important detail of my life, only to be walked away from. Goddammit, I knew this would happen. I just knew it. 

Martin had successfully crushed me as a person. I can't get the look of his face out of my head when I told him those three words. He looked dazed and confused, not to mention anger was there. I wasn't sure if he was going to say the words back, but I never expected him to abandon me again. I thought we were going to make it out of this place strong and together. 

My two worst fears came to life. He found out about what happened with Jayce and I, and then he left me for it. After everything we have been through, he left me alone. I never wanted to be alone. I had never wanted someone so much in my entire life. I wanted him to be with me. 

It's this thought that spurs up my emotions again and I begin to sob as I lay in this bed for the last time. Tears flowed freely from my eyes and down to my face, some going into my mouth. This is the worst thing that could have ever happened to me. I try to take in deep breaths, but they were interrupted by my overall shakiness. 

I never knew how much I cared and loved him until this happened. Obviously if I didn't, I wouldn't be acting like this. I have never known anyone like him in my entire life and I was the naive person to fall for him. And he told me the same, yet here I am, all alone, without him. 

Haley has tried to help me, but I don't think she knows how to. Words can't come from my mouth because my throat is so sore and dry. I don't even know what I'm supposed to say. I'm afraid she is just going to say 'I told you so' and leave me be. 

I have no idea how long I lay there crying, but after awhile, all of my tears are out for today. I find myself hiccuping and dry sobbing. I feel weak and mentally exhausted. I just know I cannot be like this when my parents get here. They'll ask too many questions and I'm not ready to answer them. 

I am completely interrupted from my thoughts when I hear the door to the dorm opening slowly. I glance over the edge of my duvet and find Haley coming in. I feel her eyes on me but my gaze stares aimlessly towards the floor. 

I feel her small body suddenly sit on the edge of my bed upwards near my legs. "Are you okay?" her voice is slow and not her usual self.