Awake• 3rd book

Chapter 42: For Claire

"I think I am. I have to ask them more about it." We talk for awhile until I'm done eating. I look around to see everyone talking amongst someone or a group. Shawn is talking to Jacob and he smiles a little as he nods his head to something. He's doing this for you Claire. I look away and see Aaron has caught me staring. "Sorry," I say.

"It's alright. I uh... I'm sorry about everything that goes on." I look down at my empty plate.

"I think I'm going to my room early," I say quietly. "It has been a really long day."

"Okay. If you ever need anything. I'll be here."

"Thanks Aaron," I say getting up and give him a small wave before making my way inside earning a few stares. I throw my things away and make my way upstairs to my room. I go into the room I've slept on the one night when I first came here before going to Florida with my Cousin and G.

I quickly change into something comfortable and walk over to my bag to grab my journal I then go over to the bed to get under the covers. I might as well go on to Twitter. I see some of the responses fans have said to Shawn's tweets earlier because it's trending.

No one understood why you dated her. You lasted a little while and now she's just history. Never liked her in my opinion @shawnmendes

She probably only wanted you for attention Shawn. I'm glad you realized that and moved on from her (: @shawnmendes

THEY'RE OVER! YES!!! @clairejohnson @shawnmendes

Thank god Shawn. I never liked her. I only support what you wanted. @shawnmendes

My eyes water. I guess I shouldn't have went on here. I still somehow get hate, but I guess Shawn made his tweet sort of on the 'wow, im so glad this is over'. Just looking at his tweet makes it feel like he's meant it. I know he doesn't, but it does. It stings really.

I start to wipe my eyes a little and decide to tweet for myself.

@clairejohnson: one can never truly be happy

@clairejohnson: I lost people who actually meant a lot to me 😔

@clairejohnson: hold on to the memories because you don't know when they just become a distant picture 😪

@clairejohnson: being hated by people is something I'm used to and I wish I didn't have to say that, but it's true

I plug my phone in and quietly cry to myself as I open up my journal to a new page. A page I'll write about the pain and the emptiness.

Nash Grier

We all watched as she went inside and Aaron comes over to me with a sigh of defeat.

"She's upset Nash," he says to me. "It's really sad to see a girl to be so sad like that."

"I know," I say keeping a conversation and taking my phone out to send a message to Johnson.

Me: Should I go up there to see if she's okay?

Johnson: yeah, I was thinking about the same thing myself. I'm really worried for her Nash and I don't know how I can help her. After whatever Cam said to her and Shawn telling everyone about them breaking up? I thought he cared?

Me: He does care. Trust me he does. It's uhh... Screw it. I need to talk to you, G and Sam, but without everyone wondering what we're doing.

Me: meet us in the basement

I put my phone away excusing myself from Aaron and made my way inside and down into the basement where the air mattresses are. I start to pace back and forth as I wait for them. Moments later, they all come down.

"So what do you want to tell us?" Johnson says.

"We need to help Shawn and Claire for their sake," I say.

"How exactly do we do that?" G asks. "Shawn's made it pretty clear that they're done and things didn't work out."

"That is a freaking lie that both Claire and Shawn just made up before you got here. They are deeply in love and Taylor, the crazy ass had to go and ruin everything."

"What do you mean Taylor 'had to ruin it?' " Sam asks frowning.

"He talked to Claire on the phone a few hours ago telling her to have Shawn stay away from her or something or he'd post something viral for everyone plus Shawn to see. So she came to me and Shawn. Apparently Shawn said something about he didn't want her to get hate about this so that's why they made up why they weren't working out well."

"That son of a bi-" G says angrily.

"I will go after him right now," Sam says angrily.

"This is not okay," Johnson says.

"I will fly down to them and ki-"

"We weren't supposed to know about this," I say interrupting. "He said i-"

"He'll what?" G says fuming. "I will get him arrested if I have to. He can not do this to Claire. I don't give a damn for any reason. Claire does not deserve any of this shit."

"Claire and Shawn are going to get back together. I'm not letting her go with him for a week on her college tour if he's going to be like that. He does not have to act along," Johnson says. "Go get him right now."

"Bu-"

"Nash get him! My cousin is probably freaking stressed out and heart broken over this! I'll be in her room and you guys can talk to him." We both agree with his plan. Johnson and I walk upstairs with him going up more stairs after and me going outside to get Shawn.

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