Vengeance. Loki

Chapter 39

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Chapter 39: Here for you

I woke up to the sun streaming through my windows and onto my face with a comforting warmth. Sauntering over to my closet I pulled on the pair of leggings from the other day only spraying Febreeze on it (shhhhhhh don't tell anyone *giggle*), and a purple tank top.

I walk to the kitchen and stick a piece of toast in the toaster. I watch it intently till it pops, grabbing a Avocado I make myself a set of avocado toast. I sit and eat my breakfast in the living room watching the news, I grabbed the remote putting on Closed Captions. Not bothering to change the channel.

The new read, 'another terrorist attack in the central part of NYC happened just a few moments ago and has had over 100 deaths so far. If the avengers are watching this, please help, says a local, as we continue on today, the temperature is going to be a....' I look away, putting my food on the coffee table. I folded my hands in my lap. I am overwhelmed with emotions. Feeling footsteps against the floor I look up and find most of the team staring at me.

'What' I sign. They look at me with confusion. I run over to the kitchen table and grab a napkin out of the center of the table, sprinting at Tony I grab his pen out of the small front pocket of his business suit. Placing the napkin on the table I write out the words, 'what' in black messy letters. Tony just pulls out his phone and broadcasts his phone screen to the tv. He goes into notes, makes a new one and types.

'Are you okay?"

'Yes' I write out on the napkin again.

'Obviously something is wrong because you look like you could cry' I pause.

'Did you know about the terrorist attack?' all he did was nod in response

'Where you going to help?'

'Shield said that they had it covered but obviously they are too ignorant to let us help. I was planning on leaving soon' I nod taking his words in.

'Are you okay' I look straight into his eyes and nod.

'Something is wrong because you look like ya could cry' I pause.

We sat there for a second. As I tried to find the words to express myself.

Snatching Tony's phone out his hand I start to type, 'I feel useless, I saw on the news that a terrorist attack was happening right now, and I cant do anything.' My stomach lurched, I couldn't  a gnawing feeling that sat in the pit of my stomach slowly rising, leaving a cold shiver trail up my spine. Something was telling me that this terrorist attack was more then it seemed, not more dangerous but like it had a bigger purpose.

I begin again shaking my head, returning to the present, 'I want to get back out there, and fight but I know none of you are going to let me' I finished. I felt my eyes travel up to tony's handing him his phone back, the look of guilt and sadness radiated off his face. He turned around, facing the group behind him, glancing around at their faces I didn't feel loki's eyes. I search, coming up empty handed as I found him missing. Gone, like the song says, Honey, I'll be gone like the wind.

My face found my lap as I stared daydreaming about the sounds I once could hear, but their loving sounds and voices were fading from my memories. Closing my blue eyes, imagining the scene of the wind in the trees, birds chirping high above with happiness and life. The rustling of leaves and the footsteps of creatures that ran around the comforting forest.

My mouth became a found smile recalling the memories outside the Hydra base we thought was abandoned but was not by our surprise. A light tap on my shoulder pulled me from my memories as I blinked, opening my eyes. Pearing up I found Tony pointing to the Tv. Swiveling my gaze I read over the words.

'You can come with us, BUT, you have to stick close to the civilians.' mid read, I nodded.

'I am well aware that you can handle yourself but I dont think it is wise to let you fight in battle without knowing what it will feel like now that you dont have hearing anymore. I will have the team check up on you from time to time. AND last thing, if you feel something isn't right or you are too over whelmed' I look at him with a are you serious expression. I look back at the text, picking up where I had left off, 'go back to the ship, let someone know.'

Standing I felt my heart race with excitement. I give Tony and steve a curt nod. Letting my mischievous brain win I steal tony's phone for the last time and wrote, 'you're starting to sound like spangled man over here'. Shoving the phone back in his hands watching the team laugh. I stride out of the room and down the hall.

I looked at Loki's door debating on weather or not to check on him. He has done so much for me, why not do the same, I wanted to make sure he knew I loved him. I silently tip toed, I hoped, over to his door before knocking. Eyes wide as he opens the door to see loki, my boyfriend, with messy hair that looked like a rats nest. His eyes are half open, the bags under his eyes made him look like shit. I reached up my hand and placed it gently on his cheek, cupping it. I could feel his sigh and him lean ever so gently into my hand.

Walking in I sat on his bed. He closed his door and rushed over to me. I felt his arms around my waist as he laid his head on my stomach. Mine and his legs wrapped around one another. I could sense his body loosen from the tension it had originally been in. I played with his hair until he lifted his head and looked up at me. I smiled and pecked his lips, his eyes were so adorable.

Gradually he sat on his haunches and looked at me. 'Are you okay' I signed

'I am stressed but I will be fine love'

'I know but you were fine this morning but after we got back you vanished, it scared me but I knew you were okay but I need you to open up to me darling.'

I cupped his face again...'I am here for you'

He looked me dead in the eyes. Bringing his hand to my face mimicking my previous actions. With his other he talked.

'I am scared I am not enough' My brain is numb, my mind feels like it is running a million miles a second, was this really how he felt. I know for a fact that Loki is a good man whether others believe it or not. I am not going to let him sit here and say this about himself when it is not even true.

'Loki' I start looking into his desperate green eyes.

'You are the most talented, the most interesting, the most extraordinary person- I've ever seen and you are capable of amazing things, because you are special, because you are worthy. You are my everything, my one and only and the person I know, is enough' His strong muscular arms wrap so tightly around me as we sit on his dark green bed. Face barred into my shirt. He kisses my cheek, looks into my eyes.

'I love you and I hope you know that I would never be here without you.'

I nod, kissing the top of his head.

'Loki, I don't want to leave you but I have a mission,' I pause 'I need to go' he lets go.

'Good luck'

But I know...

He was lying.......

My feet step through the doorway of my room, I look and find a neatly folded set of clothes with a note on it. Stepping closer to it I can see Tony's hand writing on the sticky note.

'Hey kid, I know that the suit you had last got torn up and honestly in my opinion, it sucked. BUT I thought why not make this for you! I was planning on giving this to you as a Christmas gift but I figured you might want it now.

-Tony'

This was so sweet of him. I picked up the suit and held it up to myself. Gorgeous I thought.

I slipped into my new suit, the smooth fabric gliding over my skin just like the one I used to wear. As I adjusted the fit, I couldn't help but notice the subtle yet striking difference - where once vibrant green fabric adorned my figure, a rich, dark purple now took its place. The deep hue carried an air of mystery, a departure from the lively green that had defined my previous suit. I admired the way the dark purple complemented the sleek lines of the suit, giving it a renewed elegance.

Checking myself out in the mirror I started walking to the roof.