"HOLD THEM TIGHT, TELL THEM HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM. TIME IS OUR GREATEST ENEMY, AT ANY MOMENT, I KNOW IT'LL TAKE YOU AWAY FROM ME"
I don't believe in ghosts but this morning I felt something peculiar. 9 am in the morning and it's humid, I feel like I'm burning in hell while lying in the bedroom. I decided to get off the bed and do a little stretching to somehow distract my mind from overthinking.. again. Suddenly, a cold breeze blew. It's weird.. it lingers on my skin, specifically on my shoulders and my arms. It feels like a cold wind is embracing me. It was cold yet I could feel the warmth at the same time. I don't understand, I immediately sat on the bed and gather my thoughts. What the heck was that? After a second, I felt something cold again this time in my shoulders and in my right cheek even though the wind didn't blew. I'm so confused NOT freaked out. 'Coz I don't really believe in such entities. I don't believe in ghosts.
Although, I can convince my mind that it's just the wind, I didn't. I'd love to think it's THEM. I hope it's tatay whom embracing me. I hope it's nanay whom kissing my cheek. I don't like these days where I'm missing them a lot. Where everytime I close my eyes I could see their faces flashing like memories in a kaleidoscope. Every single time I look back at those times I can't help but to get teary eyed. God knows I still need them by my side.
They are the people that loves me during the times that I don't love myself. Losing them is like taking away a piece of me. Tatay would make me smile everytime he sees me crying— after getting scolded by my parents. Nanay is such a classic and elegant lady, I miss her.. I miss them, really. Growing up with them is a blessing I'll always treasure. They're my greatest gift, they shape me. I wonder how other people can cope with this kind of tragedy. Missing someone is like singing alone in the darkness with a doleful melody.
But after all I am certain that God has plans for me. He didn't take away my grandparents to hurt me. Perhaps, the answers in my "why's" are yet to unfold in the right time. Right now, all I know is that I miss nanay and tatay. They might not be here beside me but they'll always be alive in my memory.
It's okay to miss them and feel sad at the same time. We all wish to have our love ones stay with us in our lifetime.
RAIN
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HER JOURNAL
Non-FictionIt includes real life situations and events. A glimpse of HER thoughts. Contains poems, quotes and prose. A journal of a girl we'll just call Rain. Isn't it interesting to read someone's journal? She say's, "Sometimes, it's better to let a stranger...
