Shawn and I both got up to leave, but before I could reach the door, Shawn slammed it shut behind me, leaving only us in the room.
He turned to me and began walking. The look on his face worried me. As he took steps towards me, I took steps backward...
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He didn't respond at first, just sat there frozen, probably in disbelief. I don't blame him. This came out of nowhere. I don't know what came over me; as soon as our eyes locked, I just knew what my decision was.
His hands hesitantly rested on my waist as he broke out of his trance. When I didn't wiggle away, he pulled me in closer.
Our lips moved together, as if they were made for each other. He was so gentle and delicate with me, like I would disappear if he made one wrong move.
I let out everything I've been holding back for the last month. I was quickly running out of breath, but I didn't care. This felt so right.
All of a sudden, I felt Shawn shake his head before he pulled away and sat up.
"Cassie wait." He gently moved me off of his lap to sit next to him. I immediately thought the worst. Was he pretending to like me again all this time? That must be it. Why else would he stop? I felt stupid once again. My shoulders slumped.
He caught his breath for a second and then turned back to me. "I'm confused. Why are you doing this?" He asked.
"What do you mean? I thought you wanted this too?" I asked back sheepishly, playing with my fingers in my lap. I was unable to look at him, embarrassed.
I felt him scoot closer and cup my face in his hands, forcing me to meet his eyes. "Hey. I do want this. I want it bad, but I don't understand. I thought you just wanted to be friends? What changed?"
I placed my hands atop his and gently moved them off of my face and into my lap. "I just-" I looked away before getting the courage to speak, "-I've been battling these feelings I have for you for a while now. I've been lying to myself saying that there's no way you could actually like me and that if we dated I would be the one to get hurt in the end. But on Thanksgiving I had a talk with my sister, and she told me to just forget about everything else and follow my heart. For some reason, I can't get that talk out of my head. Just now when I looked into your eyes, I knew my answer, and my answer is that I want to be with you." I finished, ironically unable to look in his eyes.
I held my breath as I awaited his answer. I couldn't help but sneak a peek at his face when he didn't reply. He gave me a thoughtful look before placing his hand on the back of my head and slowly pulling me in for another kiss.
It was a short kiss, but left me in a daze nonetheless.
He slowly pulled away. My eyes were still closed as I leaned slightly away, trying to memorize the feeling of his lips on mine.
Then I felt myself being engulfed in his arms. My eyes snapped open at his sudden embrace.
"God it feels so good to hear you say that." He whispered into my hair. I could hear the smile in his voice. A smile creeped out on my own face as I slowly wrapped my arms around him. "I promise I won't hurt you again." He added, making my smile grow wider.
