Shawn and I both got up to leave, but before I could reach the door, Shawn slammed it shut behind me, leaving only us in the room.
He turned to me and began walking. The look on his face worried me. As he took steps towards me, I took steps backward...
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I clutched on tight to the post it note as I walked back to my apartment. I couldn't help the tears from building in my eyes. I tried to hard to not let them fall, to not let him get to me.
So everything he said to me was a lie? Him being nice to me was just an act? His promise to start over; he didn't mean any of it?
There's no way that's true. No one is that awful. I needed an explanation.
I frantically searched around my pockets for my phone. I dialed his number and waited for him to pick up.
One ring. Two rings. Three rings. Four rings. Five-
"What?" He answered annoyed.
I sniffled before replying. "Shawn what d-"
He cut me off. "Didn't you read the note I left you?"
I paused, "well yeah, but I don't understa-"
He cut me off again. "How do you not understand? I never liked you. It was all a big joke." He paused waiting for my response. I couldn't say anything.
"Wait...you actually thought that I liked you?" He laughed, "Cassie you're nothing, just some random girl my agency is paying to follow me around. I told you when we first met and I'll tell you again; there is no way that I'll ever like you. If you're expecting us to get along or something, you might as well just stop dreaming."
Each world was like a dagger to my chest.
"Get over it. I have to go. We're landing" And then he hung up. I just sat there on the ground staring straight ahead with the phone still to my ear. I couldn't help but start silently crying.
How could he do this to me?
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After a couple days of staying home and being depressed, not just about Shawn, but also about missing the trip, I told myself that he wasn't worth it. Yeah I was sad that I didn't get to go to LA, but there will be other opportunities. Now I'm just pissed.
I can't believe I let him string me along. I felt stupid and ashamed, just blindly listening to him. I felt my walls go up, strong and unbreakable. I was never going to let him take advantage of me ever again. He was officially the biggest asshole I have ever met. Him being my celebrity crush? That was long gone now. I never wanted to see him again.
But unfortunately for me, I had to.
Him and Andrew were coming over to "see how I was doing." I found out that Andrew thought I didn't come with them because I was sick. That's what Shawn told him.
Shawn has also been texting me threatening me to not tell Andrew. He said he would make my life worse if I did. I don't know what to do.
Suddenly I heard a knock. A deep breath was taken in, before I walked over to the door and opened it up.
