Abandoned | Jujutsu Kaisen

Chapter 19

The first thing I hear as I wake up is, "Oh, she's awake," It's Ieiri-san's voice.

"Hakuto..." I say quietly, "It's my fault... my fault... my fault... sorry... It's my fault... just kill me... Hakuto... my fault..." I try to get up but collapse back onto the bed as a massive headache hits me.

"Ngh..." I groan from the headache. What is wrong with me? I take a second attempt to stand up; I need to get away from this place and die on my own. Right now.

"You're not going anywhere right now," Ieiri-san carefully pushes me back down. I feel Gojo-sensei rest his arms on my shoulder from behind.

"Explain what just happened," He says. I stay quiet. I don't even know what is true anymore. Did I kill Hakuto? I don't know. Either way, they'll just see me as a murderer who killed her family; the family that adopted her.

"It's just a little explanation," Gojo-sensei urges me to talk. It doesn't work, of course. 13 years living with the Kasumi family has taught me how to keep my mouth shut.

"We're listening," He whispers into my ear. Seeing that he won't stop until I do talk, I do as he says.

I take in a short breath and start, "That's my... I mean, they're the family that adopted me," Gojo-sensei stares at me without a word.

"And... I might have... killed them?"

"Did you or did you not?" Ieiri-san asks, her hands crossed over her chest.

"Uh..." My mouth opens and closes. I honestly don't know what to say. Technically I didn't kill them, but I am the one who let Itami inside me. And again, I might have killed them myself?

When I stay silent, the two adults just stare at me, wordless as well. And that's a lot of pressure for me.

"I don't know... I don't..." Then I start pleading again, "Just kill me... It's my fault anyways..." My hand instinctively reaches up for the scar on my neck, where I start scratching.

"Okaka!" Inumaki suddenly rushes into the room, slightly pushing Ieiri-san out of the way, and grabs my hand, pulling it away from the bleeding wound. I flinch as I'm a little surprised that he's here. Fushiguro quietly comes in as well. Ieiri-san lets out a big sigh and makes her way out of the room.

"Mentaiko, shake! Tuna mayo," Inumaki says in a rapid breath.

[She didn't do it! I'm sure it's not]

Fushiguro nods in agreement.

"Personally,  I don't think that either," Gojo-sensei says, which makes me straighten up a bit, "But others don't believe so," I nod, but I'm barely listening. I start scratching my palms as the previously made injury starts closing up again. Inumaki grabs that hand, too. I feel like a prisoner, with two hands held up. I shake my hand a bit for him to let go, but he doesn't. Inumaki can be way too overprotective sometimes.

"So you didn't kill them?" He asks, "I need the full story if I'm gonna help you,"

"I- I..." I take in a deep breath, "I don't think so, but... my memory seems... confused? Mixed up? Sometimes I remember it as Itami doing the killing but other times... I'm the one doing it," I explain as best I can, but it sounds weird, even to me.

"If you're not sure, I guess there's only one way to find out the truth," Gojo-san rubs his chin slightly. I take in a sharp breath. What's he going to do? Torture me? Take out my brain? Force me? Ask Itami? Hypnotize me?

"Let's go," He stands up and turns to face the door.

"Where?" Fushiguro asks. He looks like he doesn't want to go anywhere.

"If we're gonna figure out who killed that family, we have to go there ourselves," Gojo-sensei gives him a smile. Inumaki and Fushiguro start walking out. I stay still. What if they also conclude me as the killer? Will I still be able to die? Or be kept in the dungeons forever?

"'WE' means me, them, and you," Gojo-sensei shoots me a look that forces me to get up.

"Fine," I say reluctantly.

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Eh :|