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Any minute now
Those words repeated themselves over and over again in my head as i paced around the silent room that i was sharing with him four years ago.
Four years, it's been four years since i last saw him. Four years since we both shared this room together. Four long years of desperate need of his soft touch, a crave that i have been longing for four years. Four years since everything changed for the both of us.
I was nervous, scratch that, i couldn't even describe what i was feeling. He would be walking right through the door any minute now and here i stood, clueless of what to say or how to react.
I squeezed my eyes shut, hoping this was all just a dream and when i re-opened my eyes, it would all just go away and i would be back in his arms again, just how it used to be.
I didn't wanna go through this, I didn't. I did not plan to go through this, hell, i was trying to avoid this moment the most.
All those times i told him to be careful, all those times he promised me he would never leave me, that i was safe.
"Never leave me, i won't be able to handle it."
"I won't, i promise."
They meant nothing to me the moment i found out that he had left. He had gone and i didn't know how long for. I was too afraid to know how long for.
My thought were interrupted when a car pulled up in the driveway and at the same time i received a text. My stomach dropped
He's coming up.
I spun around, looking away from the door that would be opened by him in just a second. Tears filled my eyes
No no no no no
I just felt like screaming away all this pain and confusion.
Why am i still here?
That question left my mind immediately as i heard the door knob turn and the door squeaking before it shut.
My breath hitched in my throat and my lip quivered under his presence.
I was too afraid to turn around and look him in the eye, but at the same time i wanted to desperately jump into his arms and hold him tight, to never let go again.
"Baby," His voice rasped.
And that is when everything vanished. I was no longer angry, no longer disappointed, no longer questioning why i was still here.
Tears rolled down my cheek as i spun around and ran towards him. Before we even got a proper chance to look at each other, i jumped into his muscular arms. I wrapped my arms around his broad shoulders as tight as i could, my legs around his waist as I buried my head into his neck.
"Justin," i sobbed "I missed you so much."
I heard a sigh leave his parted lips, more like a sigh of relief.
He held onto me for dear life, both his arms wrapped tightly around me.
"Fuck, i missed you." He emphasized I missed you so much."
Before he had anything else to say, i pulled away and crashed my lips onto his. He immediately responded, kissing back just as hard.
If only this moment could never go away
"I'm so fucking sorry." He breathed into my hair once we pulled away.
I looked up into his brown orbs painfully and shook my head
"I can't do this anymore." As those words slipped out of my mouth, i was trying my hardest to stay strong. But the pained look on Justin's face once I said those words broke my heart. "Baby," He rasped "Baby no," his voice cracked, "Don't say that baby. We'll get through this together, I promise. I promise I'll change princess, please."
I can't handle it anymore, tears continuously rolling down my cheeks. "You brought me a lot of pain Justin, I can't do it anymore." I sobbed, "I can't." You whispered.
"No No No, baby. I'm so fucking sorry. Please don't say that. I know what I did was fucking stupid, and I don't expect you to forgive me. Stay mad at me for that forever, I don't care. But please, don't fucking leave me. I just got you back, I can't lose you again. I'm sorry. We'll get through this, I can't get through this without you baby, I'm sorry. I'll never leave again I promise."
Before I could even reply, he leaned his head down and crashed his lips onto mine, pressing his lips hard against mine. My hands ran through his soft brown locks and he pressed the back of my head, adding more pressure to kiss. I love you was all I could think of as my insides set off fireworks.
I never wanted this moment to end
He pulled back and pressed our foreheads together.
"You're so beautiful," He whispered. "And you're mine, forever."
