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Chapter 045: Reputation

Dustin George Silva's POV

It should've been me. Why of all people, why him? Adrian. Feelings of frustration and anger struck inside me as I kept on remembering the announcement of Sir Jason earlier. I clenched my fist as images of Adrian's smiley face painted my mind.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nagkakaganito. Yung maramdaman ang ito.

Heck, I don't even know what I'm feeling right now, aside that I'm mad and annoyed at Adrian Evans. I mean, I'm not really mad at him--I mean, I am, ofcourse!

Pero dapat maging masaya ako sa kanya. Pero, hindi ko buong pusong matanggap na ito ang mangyayari. Why of all the possible things that could happened, bakit si Adrian pa ang naging first sa ranking ng class namin this grading period?

Him, who is a newbie in our class and now he is taking my spot already?

Why?

Just why?

It has always been me and no one else. I already knew from the beginning that he is a smart student, considering that he got higher grades from his old school.

But I've never expected that he will beat me to the class ranking. Dahil kung tutuusin, mas matalino pa ako sa kanya.

Tang*na.

Where did I go wrong?

Saan ba ako nagkulang this period?

I know I f*cking did all the best that I can to ace of all those freaking exams just for me to not be able to get the first rank?

Ayoko nang ganito.

Bakit si Adrian pa?

Tsk.

Gusto kong sumigaw ngayon sa nararamdaman ko. I feel like a failure. Like I lost something that should've been my spot in the first place.

And now, it'll just be taken by some student who transferred to our class? There must have been a mistake.

Baka di talaga siya yung top one sa section namin. Baka nagkamali lang sa pag announce si Sir Jason sa amin kanina.

Maybe this--this--this is just a prank for me? And later, Sir Jason will call everyone in our class to apologize for speaking the wrong name and that it was me all along.

The one who's on top one.

Me.

But as far as I want that to happen. I surely doubt also that Sir Jason would do such a prank like that, especially when the rankings are mentioned. I can't do this.

Where have I made a mistake?

Am I now a failed student for not reaching the first place?

Am I going to not reach what I want when I turn college now?

Will this ever continue?

Am I not suitable to have it? The first rank? Streams of pressures are flooding inside of me as tears began to form behind my eyes as I try to think what my family will say to me.

What they will think of me?

I'm scared that they might think of me as not good enough to be part of our family because I didn't made it.

F*ck.

How can I explain this to them? For sure, they already knew what happened. I don't wanna go home like this. I don't wanna go back home being a failure in our family.

I just can't. I'm scared. I must need to make them proud with my grades and school rankings, but because of what happened now, I don't think them thinking like that towards me still is possible anymore. Gusto ko nalang manatili rito.