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Chapter 040: Trust

Adrian Evans' POV

Palaisipan pa rin sa akin hanggang ngayon ang sinabi sa akin ni Jacobbes nung isang araw. Sadyang matapos nung makalabas ako ng hospital ay yung sinabi niya nalang ang paulit-ulit na bumabagabag sa isipan ko.

What did he mean by that, anyway? Na pinsan niya raw ako? Na ako raw yung nawawalang kambal ni Adrianne?

These sets of questions inside my head gives me a ton of headache. Like, how is it even possible that we are twins? If we don't even have the same parents. Urgh!

Kung pwede palang pumutok tong utak ko kakaisip sa mga ganito, baka kanina pa siya sumabog. Look, I'm confused here, so I guess that's understandable naman siguro, right?

I mean, sadyang nakakasakit naman talaga sa ulo talaga, kasi paano ko ba naging kambal si Adrianne na yun? Paano ko ba naging pinsan si Jacobbes?

Ni hindi ko nga sila kilala dati eh. How come he could say that? It must be a misunderstanding, right?

Or what?

Pero, basing sa nakita kong picture dati sa phone ni Trescious and that he said na yung bata sa larawan na yun ay yung pinsan daw ni Jacobbes na si Adrianne. That's also me--that's also how I looked like back when I was a kid.

But, why did they say that it's him?

That it's Adrianne?

Some questions right now don't even make sense that even if I research about it on the internet, there are no answers that will provide me about it that will let me understood it even deeper.

Geez.

At kung sa akin nga rin yung picture na yun noong bata pa ako, bakit hindi ko maalala kung saan yun kinuha na picture--well, it's not me in the first place. It's Adrianne.

But it's also me--Urgh!

Kakasakit naman nito sa ulo. Just how come there's a lot of things that I can't explain these days?

I understand that we are not meant to know everything in this world, but I really demand an answer even if I sound so gravely confusing right now.

I should have been born smart, pero why can't I answer such questions? Tang*na naman--pero, teka--Naalala ko na naman ulit yung pangyayari dati noong bata pa ako.

Specifically, back when I was seven years old. That time when I was at that hospital and no memories to remember.

Hindi ko alam anong nangyari sa akin noon bago ako mapadpad doon sa hospital, pero pagkagising ko nalang noon ay nahanap ko nalang ang sarili ko na nakahiga sa isang hospital bed, na walang kahit ano mang matandaang ala-ala.

Even my own name that time, I don't know. As if my brain was really empty and no matter how hard I think that time, nothing. All I could see is just hollow and nothingness.

I had amnesia before and to be honest, I really don't get what was happening that time since hindi ko alam talaga kung paano ako napunta doon.

Ano bang ginagawa ko bago ako madala sa hospital?

Ano bang nangyari?

And why was in a hospital in the first place, anyway?

Did I get into an accident before that?

Anong rason ba bakit ako nagkaamnesia?

Tang*na. Just thinking all of those, parang may parte sa akin na gustong malaman ang buong katotohanan sa pagkatao ko.

After what Jacobbes told me last time, it made me wonder if the memories I know now are really the ones I should be remembering?

Or if it is, then who am I before my amnesia? Sino ba ako dati? I mean, obviously I would still be me, but am I? Gosh, this just confused me even more.