quicksand (Dazai X Reader)

unravel

We were back in bed. I did help Dazai change his bandages, but only the first half of his body, because for the other half, "you have to buy me dinner first" he said. Needless to say, his body was full of scars, from his neck to his hips, everywhere I could see, they were not only self-inflicted scars, there were marks that were done by others too, from hits or burns. I made my best effort to act like it was no big deal.

"This is a cool one, the former boss gave it to me, well, more like the former boss corpse, it's complicated but it was cool! It was when I met Chuuya, you can ask him to tell you the story!" He said laughing while he was securing the bandages on his stomach and pointing to a scar in his chest.

Dazai is not as scrawny as he looks with a shirt on, he has a pretty athletic body, sure he is not buff, but his body sure reflects he can stand his ground in a fight.

"Are you checking me out? You dirty woman, I just had a breakdown. I am pretty vulnerable, you know?" He said jokingly and I laughed too.

"I am just a woman" I said, raising my hands as if I was held at gunpoint.

I laughed while turning in the bed, he was already asleep, I looked at him, wondering how much time we had left in this little honeymoon. Asking myself what are we going to do when we get back. Is it gonna be over? I rested on his chest to hear his heartbeat. I fell asleep quickly without the dread that the drum of his heart would stop.

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I woke up and Dazai wasn't in bed, his side was cold, and I jolted up the bed, my hair a mess, and ran out of the room. I opened Dazais' room door and nothing, bathroom nothing so I ran to the kitchen and living room.

"Woah there, what's going on?" I heard the soft mischievous voice that I like. I turned around and he was laying on the couch, head dangling from the arm rest, music playing through the room.

"Don't do that, it scares me" I said, frowning at him and rubbing my eyes with my hand. I went to the kitchen and saw there was coffee and pastries. I turned my head to him with an eyebrow raised.

"I am sorry, but I got you coffee and donuts" He said, still looking at me from the sofa.

"Do you think that you can buy me with just a couple of pastries, coffee and your pretty face?" I asked while sitting at the kitchen counter and giving the donut a bite.

"It has worked so far" He said laughing, and standing up making his way to the kitchen. He took my donut and bit it, and also took a sip of my coffee.

"It won't soon, if you keep eating what you give me." I said complaining.

The old radio was still playing in the background, even though the TV was still on, it was set on a local radio station playing whatever the people requested.

"So, when do you think we are going back to normal?" I asked him, continuing to eat my donut.

"Never, things will never be the same, for you and the Agency, and for us" He said, flickering lightly on the forehead.

"Why no?" I asked confused, he just laughed and went back to the couch.

I just frowned and lay on the living room floor while we talked about everything and nothing at the same time. I was actually getting sleepy.

"Hey, what do you like about me?" He asked out of nowhere. His tone was curious, his childish side coming outside to play.

"Mmmm... I like that you are smart, but not the academic stuck up kind of smart, like creative and intuitive kind of smart which makes it interesting to be around you. You can also be funny and theatrical, and even though you almost always act like that to obtain something, I think there is a part of you that really is like that. We can also talk for hours about nothing and anything without it feeling like a chore. We can also stay quiet for hours and it doesn't feel weird." I rambled looking at the ceiling then looked at him, he was staring down at me from the couch, eyes reading me as if to catch me in a lie.