quicksand (Dazai X Reader)

divine punishment

//TW: violence, child abuse//

We were back to looking at each other while sitting on the floor of his living room, the candle between us losing its fire slowly, but I could still see the small flame reflected in his sad eyes, they were still tired, still heavy, but less empty.

"What the fuck were you doing? It was creepy" Chuuya's voice broke our staring contest and we looked at him like mischievous children caught by a parent. I opened my mouth to give him some sort of answer but was cut off by Dazai.

"Nothing your little pea brain could comprehend, hat rack" His tone was a little forced, still not his usual carefree and annoying self, but he was getting back to that, so I just laughed and slapped his hand slightly as if reprehending him for being rude.

"I will punch you so hard you wont even remember your name if you keep pushing my buttons fucking mummy" Chuuya muttered but I could see a little faint smile of relief on his face. Seems like we were out of the woods.

Chuuya turned back to the kitchen and we followed him like little ducks. The feeling of hunger made itself known after the tension in my body was gone. Dazai stayed behind a little, stretching his legs and arms in the living room while the red haired man and I put some plates on the counter.

"How long were we out?" I asked Chuuya, curious about what happened in the outside world while we were playing on my imaginary beach.

"Like 3 minutes" He said while serving the food on the table and I just hummed in response.

Dazai was right, Chuuya knows how to cook, it was just instant ramen with a little more spices and ingredients but it felt gourmet. We were on the kitchen counter eating. The two men were barking at each other while eating, fighting about stupid things, ignoring once again what the hell just happened.

"So are you going to fucking explain to me what weird shit you were doing? Like how are you back to normal? I was about to call a fucking exorcist for you when you werent moving, it was so weird watching you shut up for once" Chuuya said putting his chopsticks down. Dazai and I just looked at each other then at the food in front of us.

"My, my, Chuuya, we can't tell that kind of information to the enemy, it would be reckless! Treason even! We could be hanged in public" Dazai answered being over dramatic and Chuuya clenched his fists ready to throw a punch.

"He needed to get out of his own head so I invited him to mine" I said while drinking some water, looking away.

"What te fuck does that even mean" Chuuya turned to face me now, interrogating me now instead of Dazai.

"Mmm you could say it's part of her ability, I literally went inside her head, it was cool" Dazai answered for me, making Chuuya turn back to him.

"You can do that?" Chuuya asked me, face full of surprise and curiosity.

"Well, it's the first time I tried it, so I guess I can? I don't know this is weird territory for me too, it was mostly Lilith work honestly" I answered stumbling into my words because the concept was hard even for me to grasp.

"Maybe if she practices, she could get into your head and make you and Arahabaki finally communicate" Dazai said, caution on his voice, as he knew it was kind of a sensitive topic with Chuuya. I just stayed silent waiting for his response.

"Like hell it would even listen..." Chuuya whispered, a little sadness in his tone but we all ignored it, remembering the hat wearing man did not like to feel vulnerable, like everybody else in this room.

"Well, if I can help I will, just keep that in mind" I said as I continued to eat the noodles silently.

"Speaking of help... call Hirotsu-san, he probably is covering for you right now, so it would be nice if he heard something from you" Dazai said casually, standing up from his chair and taking his empty plate from the counter, also taking Chuuya's and mine.