I was about to get up when I suddenly feel dizzy. What the hell is happening to me? Yeah, I'm sick but why now? Why am I acting like this now?
"Shrynae, you're gonna be late. Are you still sleeping?" Dad opened the door of my room. I don't usually lock the door of my room because I'm scared something might happen to me while I'm sleeping and dad can't enter my room.
"Dad I-" I didn't finish my statement because I suddenly vomit blood and I am still in my bed! Argh!
"I'm fine, dad, I'll just stay home. You should go to your work now, you'll be late." Dad glanced at his wristwatch and took a deep breath.
"I can't leave you like this, Shrynae. I'll be absent today, you should be absent too. Come on, clean yourself and I'll just change your bedsheet." I stared at dad while he helped me get off the bed. Gosh, I feel like a burden to dad.
"I'm used to this, dad, I can handle this on my own. You should go. You need to work for the both of us, remember?" For you to buy me the medicines that I am not taking anymore. Medicines won't work at me anymore so what's the purpose? I feel so guilty of not drinking it though.
"Are you still drinking your medicines?" I heard dad ask while I am still taking a bath in the bathroom.
"Stop buying me medicines, I won't drink it anymore. I'm just going to be a burden to you, we should just accept the fact that the medicines can't help me anymore." Tears fell from my eyes. I still want to live my life to the fullest and this is still not the fullest. Yes, I feel alive but this is still not enough.
I want to have a bucket list-I actually have one. But it's not yet finished and I also think that I won't be able to do all of it.
"Don't say that, Shrynae!" I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
"I heard you talking to the doctor when I was in the hospital the day before I got discharged. The doctor said that the medicines can't heal me. Nothing can cure me, dad. Please, stop it already," I pleaded. Tears roll down my cheeks at the same time the water from the shower fell in my body.
"Just inform my teacher on your way to work. Tell her that I will be absent today." Because I don't think I can focus in my class if I will be going to school. I will probably just stay at the school clinic, vomiting blood or having a nosebleed and feeling different kinds of pain.
"I won't go to work, Shrynae, I'll take care of you. I have already sent a message to my boss and your teacher. None of us will be leaving this house today." I took a deep breath.
Dad, what will happen to you if I'll die?
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Dear Diary,
My dad didn't let me go to school because I keep vomiting blood. And I'm also too weak to get up. My dad just informed my teacher about it.
BINABASA MO ANG
Maybe Someday
Teen Fictiona stand alone novel completed "Maybe Someday we'll meet again, just not in this lifetime." Shrynae Avery Vizcaino finally decided to leave the hospital after a year. She decided to go back to school and have a normal life. She wants to do whatever s...
