My Idol, My Muse | Jendragon

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~ Jennie ~

--- Jennie !! Your cell phone just rang! --- Jisoo tells me from the living room. When I get to where she is I see her with the phone in her hand staring at the screen in amazement --- Unnie! Why are you looking at my cell phone? --- I snatch it from her hand
--- Jennie-ah what is that I saw? Do you have something to do with Kai? EXO's Kai? Why is he texting you? Explain to me now, I demand it ---
--- Unnie ... don't be like that, it's nothing serious, we've only seen each other once --- I explain to Jisoo but instead of understanding me, I feel like she gets more upset
--- You both saw each other? Jennie do you know the magnitude of that? What if someone sees you? We are about to start the tour, you know how bad a scandal would be to us! --- She claims me
--- Jisoo-unnie yes I know, I promise you I was very careful with that ---
--- And what happened to Kwon Ji Yong-oppa? --- Jisoo asks
--- What about him? --- I answer nervously and look at the ground
--- Don't pretend to be Jennie and answer me, I covered you many times because you were crazy about him, and now what? ---
--- I ... if I'm honest, I don't know. I do not deny that I miss him and think about him many times at day, but oppa is not here, he has not called me once since he left ... And with Kai I ... it feels good ---
--- Well Jennie I hope you know what you are doing, anyway I will always be here to support you so trust me for the next time, okay? --- After Jisoo told me that I hug her --- Yes Unnie !! I promise to tell you everything from now on ---

After the chat with Jisoo, I go to my room and finely read Kai's message "Hello pretty, the Eiffel Tower and me are waiting for you, we have prepared a surprise for you" A smile is drawn on my face until my gaze crosses again with oppa's ring that rests on the bedside table, I observe it for a moment, I stretch my arm and I put it in the drawer, where I cannot see it ...

The lights of Paris shine brightly outside the car as I go to the hotel, I have come a few days for the fashion week "I saw that you arrived in Paris, rest, see you tomorrow night" I read on the screen of my cell phone. Waa this city is something.

The next night arrives, I have come to the address that Kai sent me. When taking a tour of the place I see him and I go towards him. He has prepared a dinner in a place overlooking the Eiffel Tower, now I understand his message from days ago.
--- Well, you did try --- I say laughing, he approaches me and kisses my hand, doing so I blush
--- Good night Jennie, let me be a gentleman to you --- he says to me while he moves the chair so I can sit.

He is too handsome today, more than normal or it will be the Paris effect. We enjoyed a good dinner, fresh air and beautiful views, it makes me feel so good to be here in his company. The end of the evening comes, we get up and when we go to the exit Kai takes my hand and brings me closer to him to tell me in a way only I can hear him
--- Do you want me to go to your hotel tonight? --- His seductive voice and his lips that almost brush my cheek while he speaks, leave me no choice but to answer --- Yes ---

We arrived at the room, after having accepted I begin to feel somewhat regretful but I don't know why, I want this, right? Kai doesn't give me time to think much, as soon as I close the door, he throws himself at me and he kisses me passionately, making me forget everything that was disturbing me. He drags me onto the bed between breathtaking kisses, he removes his shirt exposing his perfect toned abdomen, he begins to shed my dress as his lips kiss my neck and my skin is electrified with his caresses. He stops and reaches for his phone --- I have prepared a special playlist --- Soft music begins to roam the room as we become entangled in boundless passion.

At the bottom of all the fire that we're living something comes to mind

I hope that when I leave these words accompany you and make me travel back to you.

That song that's playing… the car… the coast… the ring… his tattoos… his laugh… oppa… that song, it's my song, it's ours…
--- Oppa ... ---
---What are you saying, cute? How did you call me? --- says Kai as he kisses my neck
---Not!! Stop, don't go on --- I get up and sit on the edge of the bed. Kai approaches my back and tries to bring me back --- No, I told you enough ..., you better go, I don't feel well ---
--- What happened Jennie? Were you alright until now? --- he questions
--- I was ... not anymore, I ... I'm very sorry, can you go? ---
--- If you are not ready yet I understand, at another time it will be ---

Kai gets dressed and says goodbye to me before leaving, I can't even look him in the eyes. What am I doing? Why did that song have to come out? Why is it enough for me to hear just a few seconds from that song and Ji Yong-oppa comes back to my mind like a tsunami? I guess I've been fooling myself all this time ... I denied it ... I forced myself to push it away, I wanted to move on, but somehow the words "move on"  in my life always leads me to the same point, to him ...