Legacies Imagines

Hate U Love U (Penelope)

Unrequited love, you get lost in your memories and thoughts.

I watch as my room grew dark, laying on my bed, headphones on blasting the same song on repeat. My memories almost torturing me.

Feeling used, but I'm still missing you

"I missed you!" Her arms tightly wrapped around me. "Belgium was fun an all, but I missed you." I smiled widely. "I missed you more Penny."

And I can't see the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss against my lips

"Come cuddle!" She drunkenly shouted from my bed. I lay down next to her and she lays her head on my chest. I smile looking at her. She leans up her lips puckered aimed at my cheek. I move my head a little and she lightly pecks my lips. "Oops, I stole a kiss." She giggled.

And now all this time is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you

I watch as Penelope hugs Josie from behind. The smile on the taller girl's face just as wide as the green-eyed beauty. Josie turns in her arms quickly kissing Penelope. I look away my heart aching.

Realize how much I need you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you

"Would you go on a date with me?" Wendy asked me shyly. I felt bad. She was a sweet girl, but I wasn't over Penelope. It's not fair to Wendy. "Sorry Wendy, I'm just not ready to date right now." Wendy frowned sadly. "Oh, okay. Well, I'm here if you ever change your mind." She kissed my cheek before walking away.

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

'Josie's just perfect. She's beautiful inside and out. She's got the best qualities, caring, loving, sweet, nurturing, musically inclined. I just love everything about her.' I read out of my copy of the burn book. She's been writing little things like this about Josie all week.

What about all the times
You would pick me up and we'd just drive
Around until we found a place to stay and waste the day away
We'd do nothing but it was okay with me

Penelope and I pulled over by a lake. It had a beautiful view. It was too cold to go swimming, so we walked along the water. We reached this point that had the perfect view of the whole lake. We sat on a rock together just taking in each other's presence. "You're my favorite person to do nothing with." Penelope smiled. I returned the smile. "And you're mine."

You say it's not good to spend all my time
Thinking about you so late at night

"We're friends y/n. That's all we're going to be. You can't be up all-night thinking about me. It's not practical and not how you should think about you friends. Josie and I are happy. I thought you wanted me to be happy?"  I shake my head at her. "I do."

But I can't stop once I start it's like an avalanche
Thoughts coming and I just wanna hold your hand

"No! Don't touch her!" She yelled before using her magic to pin the vampire against the wall. I fell the floor gasping. She snapped the vampire's neck before reaching her hand out to me. I took her hand, and she intertwined her fingers with mine. I went from being terrified to completely relaxed.

Hold your breath, I'm going under
Not coming up 'til this night is over
Until this night is over

"It's going to be okay y/n. Whatever it is I'm sure it will blow over soon." Hope tries to comfort me when she found me crying.

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you

Jade and I were laughing and playing video games. "Oh my god, stop! You're cheating!" Jade reached over trying to take my remote. "Hey! That's cheating!" I try to take her control as well. We both laughed and before I knew it, she kissed me. I kissed her back for a second, then pull away. "I'm sorry!" Jade quickly apologizes looking guilty. "It's not your fault Jade, I'm sorry."  I hang my head feeling guilty as well.

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

'I've never seen anyone as beautiful as my Jojo. No one as kind and selfless as my Jojo. She's my everything.' Tears sting at my eyes reading Penelope's latest journal entry.

All alone, I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen

Penelope and I sat by the bonfire smoking a joint. I watched her as her gaze fell on a tall brunette. Her eyes sparkled and she smiled. She's never looked at anyone like that before. It's like she was the only girl she's ever seen.

You don't care, you never did
You don't give a damn about me

"We were friends y/n. You were my best friend, but things change. People change. We're not the same people we once were. I just don't care the way I use to." Then she walks away from me my heart breaking.

Yeah, all alone, I watch you watch her
She is the only thing you've ever seen

Penelope and I walk into the school dance, she was looking around anxiously. "Who are you looking for?" I ask as we walk towards the punch. "Oh, uh..." Penelope still kept looking around the dance intently. Suddenly her eyes light up and she smiles brightly. "There she is." She points to the brunette from the bonfire. "Oh,"

How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me?

I walk into the library. Penelope quickly catching my attention. She motions for me to come over but then I see Josie walk over and sit in her lap. I literally felt sick to my stomach. I shook my head at her and ran out of the library.

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you

I get to my dorm room to see a beautiful bouquet of sunflowers, my favorite. Who left them here? I saw a note and quickly read it. 'I heard these are your favorite... Your eyes shine even more than a field of sunflowers.' I turned the note over. 'Meet me at the old mill for a special date if you'd do me the honors that is -Jed' I half smiled. Jed was sweeter than people gave him credit for. Shame I can't give him what he wants.

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

"You're my friend. She's, my girlfriend. You're pretty. She's beautiful. She's selfless. You're selfish like me. We'll never work."

I cry until I fall asleep like I have since Penelope, and I stopped being friends.