Letters to Chanyeol

Present Time

I grabbed Chanyeol's hand as we ran outside the church. The reception that I picked was walking distance from the church. Everyone followed us with curiosity and even if I know that Chanyeol couldn't run, for some reason, he could today.

Chanyeol paused upon seeing the reception. His whole body just stood there while I turned to him. I, with the help of Kyungsoo, Kai, and Suho, decorated the garden with Chanyeol's favorite video games.

The garden was filled with standees of his favorite characters. The chairs were made of lego and the whole area was enclosed in a Pokemon ball. I pulled him as well entered the small venue and I could hear some people's reaction.

"How..." is all Chanyeol could manage to say. I didn't reply and led him to our table where there were small gundam toys, one of his favorites. His eyes started to water while he cupped his face. I chuckle, this was the reaction I was going for.

Chanyeol looked at me and hugged me tight. "I don't know what to say" He said in between sniffs. I hugged him back, "I love you" He buried his face on my shoulder and nodded. I moved away and wiped his tears for the 3rd time today.

"Let's proceed with the reception."

Once everyone was settled in, the food was distributed. Everyone was busy admiring the masterpiece we made while Chanyeol was just staring at everybody. "Is everything oka?" I asked with worry.

He turned to me and nodded, "Everything is perfect."

I didn't have time to prepare a program so we just let our parents do some speech. "I think we would like to see the newly wed dance" Chanyeol's father suggested, which earned approval from the guests.

Chanyeol stood up and offered his hand. "May I?" I couldn't help but chuckle. I nodded and took his hand as we head to the middle of the circle. Kai, who was by the speakers, pressed a button on his phone. (For reference: )

"What's happening?" I asked because to be honest, I really have no idea what's going on. Chanyeol smiled and placed my hands on his shoulder while he held my waist. As the music played, our bodies started to move slowly.

I will stand by you
Even when we fall
I will be the rock that holds you up
And lifts you high so you stand tall

I won't let you go
No one can take your place
Oh, a couple fights and lonely nights
Don't make it right to let it go to waste

I just followed his movements while he closed his eyes. "Listen to the song" I nodded and we continued to slow dance.

And I won't let you fall
I won't let you go
No matter where you are
No matter where you are, I'll be there
No matter where you are
No matter where you are, I'll be there

I will hold on to
Everything we've got
A quitter, a regretter and forgetter is everything I'm not

I'll take care of you
And love you just because
You and I are better than forever
Nothing can stop us

His touch was gentle and his movements were slow yet comforting. Everything slowed down. I couldn't hear the sound of our guests. All I could hear was Chanyeol's breathing and the music.

We can be the generation
Who learns how to love
Mistakes and empty promises
Will never be enough
To tear apart the giant hearts
That beat inside us now
Let's conquer the percentages
And rise above the crowd

And I won't let you fall
I won't let you go
No matter where you are
No matter where you are, I'll be there
No matter where you are
No matter where you are, I'll be there,

After the music stopped, I opened my eyes to see Chanyeol smiling at me. I can feel my cheeks burn with his gaze so I decided to look down. He chuckled and lift my chin. He planted a small kiss on my lips before looking at the guests.

"Do we have games?"

For some unknown reason, Kyungsoo seemed to be prepared for anything. In no time, we were playing fun games. Chanyeol and I watched from our table. His hand never left mine. I couldn't help but look at him because it has been a long time since I saw him this happy.

"You don't have to stare at me all night, you know" he suddenly commented, catching me off guard. I placed my head on his shoulder, while he held my hand tighter. "I am yours forever" he mumbled. I don't know why but my heart ached with what he said. I hugged his arm tight, hoping that this night will never be over.

It was around 11 pm when everyone decided to go home. I booked a hotel nearby and with the doctor's approval, Chanyeol and I can spend a night together privately. Kyungsoo took us to the hotel and looked at me with worry.

"We're gonna be fine. I'll call you, okay?" I assured him as Chanyeol and I stood outside his car. The night was cold and Chanyeol didn't seemed bothered by it. Kyungsoo just nodded and left. Even if I insisted that I'll carry our bags, Chanyeol helped.

Our room was on the 5th floor. It was bigger than I expected to be honest. I placed our bags on the floor while I turned to him, "Can you take a shower?"

He didn't respond and just walked towards me. He looked at me with those loving us and just kissed me. It was hard and rough, like we always did. He carried me and threw me to the bed. I didn't expect that he would have this kind of energy but I didn't mind, it was our honeymoon anyway.

"Cha—" he cut me off with another kiss as he removed my clothes. I didn't know why but something was off. I wanted to ask him what's wrong but he was too focused and too strong for me to control.

When he noticed that I wasn't my actual self, he stopped and looked at me. "Please, let's just enjoy this night, Baekhyun." I bit my lip, he has a point. What's the matter with me anyway? I closed my eyes.

When I opened my eyes, it was already morning. I could feel my whole body ache. I turned to my side to see Chanyeol still asleep. I smiled and kissed his cheek. But I realized that something was wrong.

"Chanyeol?"