Cousinly love is overrated (Being edited)

Chapter 27

I changed all of my classes to things that I knew that Kyle wouldn't be in, thank god I was just not in the mood to see him or speak to him. Oh god what if he left

my boys with some skank! I started to freak out in my head as I walked to my class, my poor little boys I was fighting with my insides to not run out of the school.

I walked to my first class witch was drama. I walked in to the small room at in the front of the room was a small stage and all the kids in the room turned to look

at me as I walked into the room. Damn I almost  fell to the floor, the one person I didn't were staring right at me.

Kyle stood up and walked over to me with non other then Becca, Zeva Parker, and Lana Viney right behind him. They all started to laugh at me as the looked at me, Kyle

walked up to me and wrapped me in a hug I didn't move I wasn't in the mood to be touched by him. Before I relized it I was crying in Kyle's shoulder and now he sure

as hell wasn't going to let me go, fuck.

"Beth, whats wrong?" Kyle asked me in a small voice.

"Nothing." I said as I pussed him away from me and walked to a near by seat.

I set through frist period with Kyle burning holes into my back. I hated it that he was staring at me, he not only had the responsiablity of the twins but now of the

unborn child that was supposed to be his. Now I can see how new mothers feel when they leave there children, I was alreadying missing them my heart was breaking the

more I thought about them. After the bell rang I was the first on out of the class room, I went through the day trying to avoid him that I wasn't paying attention

in any of my classes. When the last bell rang I ran out of the school and hid in Camellia's car. Camellia and Kim finally made it to the car.

"How was your day?" Camellia asked me as she got in the car and started it.

"I ran into Kyle." I said in a low voice.

"How did that go?" Kimmy asked from the back seat.

"He already had his bitches come after me, when I walked they were laughing at me." I said as I slammed my fist aginst the dash board.

"Don't beat up my baby." Camellia cryed after I hit the bash board.

"Sorry." I mummbled lowly. "I knew I should have stayed a stay at home mom."

"Hell no." Camellia and Kimmy screamed at the same time.

"You did what you thought was right." Kimmy said with a smile.

"Kimmy, is right." Camellia said as she turned. "He needs to learn tot ake care of his own children."

"But they are my kids. I miss them." I said as my eyes filled with tears.

"But he needs to learn how to deal with the boys." Camellia said as she looked at me and parked in her drive way

I didn't say anything as I walked into her house and up the stairs to one of her spare bedrooms, I set there on the bed messing with my thumbs as I thought about my

twins. I couldn'thelp it so I called my two gay best friends up and asked them to bring me some beers, they brought me over some beer. While Camellia and Kimmy were

down stairs I was up stairs getting drunk, I finally ran out of beer that I went I went down stairs to Camellia and Kimmy.

"Hello my beautifuls." I said in a slur

"Beth, are you drunk." Camellia asked me as I looked at her.

"No!" I kind os yelled, I lied to her and I knew she could tell that I was lieing to her.

"Yes you are." She said as she stood up. "Why would you be so stupid!"

"Because I was missing my boys." I said as I fell off the couch and landed on the floor.

"That doesn't mean you go and get drunk!" She yelled at me. "You simply call Kyle and ask to talk to the boys."

"I don't want to talk to Kyle." I said as I tryed to pick myself up off the floor. "Plus Bug and Rico can't talk."

"Here you were so affraid of becoming your mother. If you would look at yourself in the mirror you would be able to tell that you are stronger then her. You only did

this because you are in love with Kyle and you miss him and the boys. If you weren't so scared that you were going to hurt them all you would be fine, all you have

to tell yourself is that you are strong then you mother and you would be fine," Camellia said as she helped me off the floor and back onto the couch.

My eyes filled with tears as I relized that it was all true, I was so scared of becoming a clone of my mother that I wasn't just putting Kyle and my boys in danger I

was also putting myself in danger. All I needed to do was tell myself that I was stronger then my mother would ever be, she didn't lose it when she was told she was

going to be a parent, she lost it when she was there to see her parents kill right infront of her. I wanted to go back to the house, but it popped in my head that

Kyle really did need to learn how to take care of them without my help for one. I barley left him for an hour yesterday that he was crying calling me to come back.

"I love you guys!" I said as I wrapped my arms around their necks.

They both smiled at me and that was the last thing I remember before I passed out on the floor.