She had built a wall around her heart, to protect it from any heart break because that's the most thing she's afraid of.
Until Jennie came to crumple it all down making her vulnerable and unsafe.
Lisa G!P
stay where one is or delay action until a particular time or until something else happens.
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Lisa Manoban
Being alone was never hard before I met her..
I lack empathy
I lack emotional availability and mental stability
I don't feel things deeply
I don't fall in love easily and I am not easily loved.
I don't feel sympathetic for people going through a lot.
I don't cry to funerals and weddings.. Sometimes, I make myself busy just so I wouldn't have to attend.
I'm not a good listener and I'm definitely not a talker.
I don't miss people when they leave and I don't mourn them
I'm a shell of what society told me to be..
Until I met her..
I once had thought that love maybe is something ridiculous.. It's such a crazy concept.. I literally said shits about it.. I never like the idea of it..
And then I felt it.. Towards someone who's soul is so beautiful... Love became the first thing that I ever wanted..
It was so easy to love her.. Jennie is like the most lovable person you could ever meet.. Sometimes, I even want to keep her inside my pocket for she is so nice and pretty that I got afraid because people might fall in love with her the same way that I do.
I doubt it though, no one can love Jennie as much as I do.. That one thing is what I'm sure of.. I don't think they can beat this hopeless romantic side of me..
Being alone and then suddenly wanting to have someone almost all the time felt like a roller coaster..
I am so used to eating alone.. Sleeping alone.. Everything, I do it all alone yet after Jennie came.. I couldn't even do a single thing without her.. How could I? It feels like I need her with everything..
Everything is going so smoothly fine until a mess happened..
It's so funny because when I was finally enjoying life.. When I was finally having fun.. God finally made me suffer again by making Jennie, the love of my life, have a fucking rare case of diseases.
It's sad. I'm mad.
At this kind of situation, I don't even know what to do.. I'm not a doctor.. I can't even advice her on doing something or something to not do.
I'm not a magician, I can't just say abra cadabra and boom! Her cancers and all her sickness will disappear..
I'm just Lisa.. Who's about to die the moment I lose her..
