Chapter 28: Him
I had been on bed rest for 3 weeks. I spent my Christmas and New Years in bed, it really sucked. That was three weeks of the Fresh Prince of BelAir and Martin reruns. I've seen more reruns than I can take. When week Three came around I was ready to get out of the house and feel the sun on my face.
“You have a doctors appointment,” Shay said with excitement as she entered the master bedroom.
I was more excited for this appointment then anyone else. I was tired of laying in the bed and eating candy.
“I hope he says I can get out of this bed,” I informed her as she took a seat on the bed.
Shay and I really haven't talked about the events that happened in Dr. Willis office before she tried to kill Shay. We've talked a lot about Dr. Willis and her crazy personalities. Thanks to her, I will never talk to another shrink again. It was all Logan's idea anyway. However, we haven't talked about us or Lisa or the lie she told me about Logan. I think Shay's has been avoiding those topics.
“Let talk,” I finally said.
“About.”
“Us,” I informed her.
“Is Lisa pregnant with your child.” I raised me eyebrows then she added, “I over head a conversation you two were having in your office.”
“I apologize about that but I promise you that is not my child. I have never slept with her and we can have a test done if you want...”
“I believe you,” She cut in.
“I think the thong you found in my bag was Lisa's.” Shay had a pissed off look on her face before she could open her mouth I said, “let me explain.” She nodded her head. “I did call Lisa to get together at the hotel but like I told you I didn't go through with it. So I sent her a Gucci bag as an apology for leading her on but she does not take no for an answer. She's been calling none stop and leaving things on my car and in my bag. I've found condoms in my bag and her shirt. That's all my fault and I'm begging for forgiveness. I am so sorry.”
“I forgive you,” she said and she meant it.
I was beyond surprised. Shanay does not give up a fight that easily but she was now. I was expecting her to try and hit me but she was calm.
“When you got shot I thought that was it.” A tear dropped from her eye's and I grabbed a hold of her hand. “We both made mistakes and I really do want to move past this and get back to us.”
I leaned up and passionately kissed Shanay.
“I want to move past all this but one thing.” Shay's eyebrows roused. “You kind of mess up my friendship with Logan.”
“I'm sorry but Logan forgave you for hitting him,” Shay pleaded.
“That's not what I mean. I haven't talk to Logan since I hit him. After what you said I don't think I want you around him. My trust for him has gone down,” I explained to her.
Before I was cool with Logan and Shay being friends. But after her little stunt I think they are too close. Shit like friends taking each others girls really do happen I will be damned if I let that happen.
“Believe me when I say Logan would never do that to you. I kissed him and he pushed me away quickly. You can trust Logan. I don't want your friendship to be different with him. He's your best friend and just a friend to me. I have bests friends already. I go to them first most of the time,” She explained.
“Let just move past all this,” I pleaded.
Shay kissed me then went to hope in the shower. It felt good to be getting my wife back. I really wanted to talk to her about New York but I did not want to bring down her mood.
As far as my plans for the firm in New York, that had been pushed back until the end of March. After the events that took place I wasn't ready to open the firm just yet. I still was going to New York just not as soon as I thought I would. I wanted Shay at my side when I was there.
We would have to discuss that matter later because Shay had to take me to the doctors office. I had plans to take her to dinner and talk to her about it. She said she wanted to be with me so that has to mean she'll come to New York with me.
After the doctor informed me that my bed rest was lifted I was going to take Shay out to dinner. Unfortunately, Shay got a call from someone and it seemed serious.
She gave me the car keys and said, “I gotta go.”
“Where are you going with out a car,” I asked her.
“I'll catch a cap,” She informed me as she started to walk down the hall. “I have to help the team with something. I'll see you at home,” she added as she made he way down the corridor.
“Shay,” I called out but she continued to walk down the hall.
When Shay said the team she was talking about the FBI. Shay was going to VA where she worked with the FBI for a reason I do not know. I tried to call Shay but she didn't answer the call. I took the truck to the office to talk to Logan. If I couldn't talk to Shay then I could face my problem with Logan.
Logan had stop pass the hospital and staid with me but we never talk about the fight or the fact that I accused him of being in love with Shay.
Logan was behind his desk looking over paper work when I walked in.
“Damn you off bed rest already,” Logan question as I took a seat in the chair in front of his desk.
“I still have to take it easy,” I informed him. “I didn't come here for small talk.”
“You don't do small talk,” Logan cut in.
“I really wanted to apologize for taking a couple of swings at. I was out of line,” I apologized.
Swinging at my bestfriend and the only real friend I have was wrong but at the time I though he had sex with my wife. Shay fabricated a lie. I should have questioned Shay first before I went to Logan. I already know Shay is not a rationally thinker when she's sad, mad, or hurt. She acts first and thinks later when she's hurt. Had I stuck around and questioned her I would have realized she was lying.
“I'm over it,” Logan said but I knew he was lying.
“Logan its me. Be real or what happened at Queen Bee will happen again but worse,” I informed him.
“I was out of line for that to.” I nodded. “I can't believe you thought I would do some shit like that. You know me man.”
“To be honest man we thought we knew Tonya.”
“You do have a point,” Logan laughed. “Understand this I think of Shay as just a friend and that is it. I don't want your wife and I would never do that to you just like you wouldn't do that to me.” He said in a hard tone.
“You did kiss her,” I said angrily.
“Correction she kissed me so take that up with your wife.” I nodded. “Next time you have problem please use your mouth and not your fist.”
“I'll think about doing that next time,” I laughed.
I don't know why I had doubts about Logan. I do have trust issues but Logan has done nothing but show me loyalty. He never told my wife about Lisa and he's always had my back.
“Also remember I can still take you,” he joked.
“sure you can,” I laugh.
“Anyways all is forgiven,” he informed me. “How is your relationship.”
“It's going good. Shay still wants to be with me and we're working on it,” I informed him.
“Are you ever going to tell her the secret we've all been keeping form her,” Logan questioned.
To be honest I never will tell Shay. That's one secret I will take to my grave. I think by telling her this it would do more harm than good. We've held onto this secret this long, there was no point in spilling the beans now. Shay would hate us all and she would hate herself.
“You think I should tell her?” I asked.
I though him and I was in agreement that Shay should never know.
“This is the only lie I believe we should keep to ourselves. It would kill Shay and she's finally getting herself back. As long as you want to keep this buried I will,” Logan informed me.
“So why bring it up,” I asked angrily.
“I saw her with the doctor from that day...”
“What doctor,” I questioned cutting him off.
“Shay was outside of your hospital room talking to the doctor who told you she lost the baby.”
“Shit.” I said under my breath.
“They were talking for a while but I couldn't hear what was being said.”
Dr. Valentin was the doctor on call who told me Shay was pregnant and unfortunately lost the baby. Once we all agreed that Shay was to never know about her pregnancy I convince Dr. Valentin to let me break the news to Shay seems how we've already lost two children. Dr. Valentin did not object because she understood where I was coming from. However, I never told Shay she was pregnant and lost the baby. It was Marie who went back to tell Dr. Valentin that Shay did not want to talk about the miscarriage. Last thing Dr. Valentin said to me was I had to bring Shay back for a check up in two weeks. I never did because I was afraid Shay would find out.
“Did Shay say anything to you?” Logan asked.
“Shay seemed cool but you know her. She likes revenge when she's hurt.” I informed him.
“I don't think she would hold this in,” Logan added.
“What the hell are we going to do.” I asked.
I was praying Shay did not know what we had done.
“She'll kill us all if she finds out,” I added.
“I don't think you should tell her and Marie agrees. I talked to her in the waiting room and we both think that's a bad idea but if she finds out from someone else it'll be worse.”
Logan was right but I had to risk it. I could not tell her. If she ever found out I hope she finds it in her heart to forgive us. I pray she doesn't harm herself in anyway.
“I gotta go home and think on this.”