Oh my gosh.
Alex was kissing me.
What the heck am i supposed to do?!
I have never kissed anyone before!
I gasped and my mouth parted slightly and he took that as an invitation to slip his tongue in my mouth.
I was so shocked by this that the first thing i did was bite him hard.
"Ow! Julie! What the hell!" He asked pulling away
"I-Im sorry! I didnt know-! I- oh gosh im sorry!" I stuttered my face getting warm.
"My tongue hurts" he whined.
"Im sorry" i said
"Will you kiss it to make it feel better" he asked a smile making its way to his face.
"Uh-um-I.... Uh" i struggled to form a sentence
Before i could make a coherent sentence he kissed me again.
I really had no idea Alex had this much of an effect on me because i found my body reacting on its own. I swear it did.
My arms went around his neck and pulled him closer to me while i gently this time bit his lip and nibbled on it smiling.
He made a deep throaty sound and his grip on my hips tightened.
I dont know what was controlling me but the second i realized what we were doing i pulled away, dashed up stairs to my room, and slammed my door shut locking it.
I heard muffled foot steps and i cowered on my bed backing away from the door while staying on my bed.
"Juliet, open the door."he demanded softly.
Honestly i have no idea how that is possible but he did exactly that.
"No" i replied in a small voice.
I was exaggerating wasnt i?
I mean it was just a kiss.. it didnt have any meaning to it? Right?
WRONG
Yes it was very wrong. He took my first kiss and he is my best friend. I dont want to ruin our friendship.
What if he likes me? What if i like him?
What if we try and it doesnt work out and one of us is so heart broken we will never speak to each again?
I cant have that! I loved Alex! I didnt want him to leave me all alone in this harsh world! He is my only friend!
"Julie please" he pleaded.
"No Alex. Go away." I said
"Please" he begged his voice cracking
Oh my cheese nip! Was Alex crying?!
I quickly stood up ran across my room and threw open the door.
Alex was standing there with tears in his eyes and looking completely and utterly broken.
I swear my heart just crumbled.
I threw my arms around him (tippy toeing because he is tall -_-) and tried to swallow the big ball of choked air in my throat.
"Im sorry i kissed you. Please dont tell me you dont ever want to speak to me again.
I cant- I wont be able to- im sorry" he let out a choked sob while wrapping his arms around me.
"No Alex. Never. Ever will i not talk to you. Ever please dont cry." I said close to tears.
Why was he taking this like this?
Why did he care so much?
"Im sorry. I guess i cant stand losing you is all. Im sorry" he said burring his head in the crook of my neck.
I hugged him tighter and blinked away the tears and pulled away from him.
"Why were you crying? You never cry" i asked wiping the one tear that fell out.
"Because i dont want to lose you. Where the hell would i be if you havent slapped some sense into me when i feel like doing retarded things? What would i do if you never called me at the perfect time to remind me that i shouldnt be doing what i was doing? I would be doing exactly what our parents were doing and being a gang banger. I would probably rape people, sell drugs, do drugs, vandalize, and do a whole bunch of other illegal things. You and your kindness keeps me sane. I swear sometimes i think i am going crazy but then you and your weirdness just reminds me that there is still awesome things out there.... and im being totally and completely sappy right now" he grumbled
I laughed and flicked his nose.
"Well i like your sappiness and really i dont think you would ever really be capable of doing all those things. You're good even if you dont know it. And i am not weird! Im ........ special" i replied grinning.
"Yeah special. Whatever helps you sleep at night." He laughed.
I was just about to make a lousy remark when something made a crash noise in my room.
I quickly turned, backed into Alex and looked around frantically searched for something out of place.
And sure enough a figure made its way out of my bathroom.
Alex quickly put me behind him and i peeked from his side to see who it was.
He wasnt very visible but i already knew who it was.
Of course it was him.
Who else was crazy enough to break peoples windows and walk around like they owned the place?
My place to be exact.
"Jeff...."
A/N
Eh not as long or as good as my other chapters ._. If they were even good .-.
Bye for now! *Waves* \(^~^)