Another request by awsomecatlover ! Hope you all will enjoy this one!
I am a first year at Kami University and I am in love with plays. Especially being able to take on an acting role. I get to be someone else for a little while. It keeps me away from bad memories.
When I get to be a lead, it really gives me hope. Once I take on that role, that role becomes me untilthe play is over. Although after all of it is done, my characters shape who I become. It is what makes me feel more human...
Since I have been involved in theatre so much growing up, the theatre Director usually call on me to write plays and also rewrite famous plays for our school. Although I still have to audition for the parts. I have never been much to write stories but plays, well they are right up my alley.
Right now I am auditioning to be Juliet from Romeo and Juliet. I have been in this play long ago but not as Juliet. So this is a big step for me in my career. I am aiming higher this time.
I already rewrote it and auditions are in a few days, it is very nerve wracking. I really want this part. Right now I am wallowing in despair in a coffee shop reading off the lines I will be auditioning with.
But I also want someone to read diolauge with me because part of the audition will be reading with someone you do not know. So I should read with someone I don't know, right?
I am to scared to ask anyone here, they seem so peaceful. I don't want to ruin their relaxation. I groan accidently. And I still can't seem to figure out what coffee to drink!
A young boy with an eye patch comes over to me." Miss is something the matter? You seem stressed. A-and you haven't ordered yet." You look at him and sigh sadly. "What troubles you Miss?" Says an old man that seems to be the manager here, comes over to us.
"I am stressed out because I am trying out for the lead role in my universites school wide play. I need someone I don't know to read lines with me." I say without thinking. Wait is it rude to say that out loud? I start to panic.
"Kaneki will do it. His shift is about to end so I will allow him to get out early. Also, I will get you the best coffee for relieving stress. Trust me." The old man smiles softly and it makes me smile too. I love this old man, I wish he was my granpa... I would be more happy.
The old man sets Kaneki down softly in the chair"Good work today, Kaneki." He seems like a very wise old man. "He is. And he is the kindest person." Kaneki says out loud. I must look confused because the next thing he said was." Sorry, you were speaking out loud. I didn't realize-"
"It is fine. I'm sorry. Didn't realize I was talking out loud..." So embarrassing! "So what school do you go to?" He asks me interested. "Kamii University, I am trying for Juliet. Here read from hear untill the end of the act." I point to where I want him to start. He looks at me startled "what a coincidence! I go there to. I will be cheering you on then." He smiles genuinely sweet and I swear that smile, could thaw my frozen heart.
I just hope my staring doesn't creep him out to much. "That is awesome! Thank you, i will do my best not to disappoint you, then." I say this with a fighting spirit! He laughs a little under his breath. So cute.
The old man brings me my coffee." Thanks,um Mr-" "call me Mr Yoshimura." He tells me his name. "Thanks, Mr Yoshimura. You are a life saver." I say while drinking the coffee. "Ho, ho. I don't know about that." He says because I flattered him.
" seriously thank you." I smile at him and he smiles back taking his leave. "Okay, Kaneki let us start."Kaneki starts off the famous balcony scene playing as Romeo:
Two of the brightest stars in the whole sky had to go away on business, and they're asking her eyes to twinkle in their places until they return. What if her eyes were in the sky and the stars were in her head?-
As he reads these lines he reads it with such compassion.I can not stop staring, or even hear the words after awhile. His acting is spot on like this is his last performance. "Ay, me."I say my lines looking off wandering just like Juliet would. "She speaks!" He says this as giddy as a schoolboy.
" oh speak bright angel, you are so bright tonight. You shine above me, like a winged messenger from heaven who makes mortal men fall on their backs to look up at the sky, watching the angel walking on the clouds and sailing on the air." He isn't his self he "is" Romeo. I could fall for him I think blushing to myself.
And I am losing Juliet because he is mesmerizing me. But I must play my part well." Oh, Romeo, Romeo, why do you have to be Romeo? Forget about your father and change your name.-" I know not that he is listening to my every word from below my Balcony.
"Should I keep listening? Or should I call out to her?" Romeo looks like he is battling with him self over if he should talk to me. But I still do not know this.
He talks all lovey dovey like. "Who are you strange voice? And why do you listen in on my midnight rummagings." I say startled by the unseen. He is cautious. He wants to protect me, but he is scared.
"Wait, how did you make it here without the guards seeing you?" He smirks at me. "I have my ways of getting around. Love works in mysterious ways."
~time skip cause this scene is pretty long in the play~
So to put it shortly I feel for Romeo. He shone brighter than the stars at night. We made a oath to each other that we would love each other forever. This helped me feel human. I will say it again.
I feel like we really connected today theough his Romeo to my Juliet, my Juliet to his Romeo. But this is all just roles in a play. Reality hits and we are ourselves again. I hate that about life.
"You are a really good actor (name). I am very impressed and it has been an honor to have been able to read with you." He praises me too much. "Oh, Romeo you praise me to much. You, as well, are an extremely good actor yourself."
He starts nervously playing with his hands. "Really? I wouldn't say I was that good. I mean I think I did pretty okay because I enjoy literature."
I stare at him closely and he backs up a bit nervous. "You are acting right now. I can tell it! You put up a front I know very well what that is like. I do it all the time too." He stares at me surprised but his eyes glaze over sadly.
"Uh, uh... I am sorry I didn't mean to get your mood down. It just makes me feel happy that I found someone that acts just like I do." He looks at me and starts to tear up some.
"It is best to let your emotions out. Otherwise, you lose your sense of humanity all together. I would know that because I already lost mine." I wish to muster up tears that will never come.
Kaneki takes my hand and leads me to somewhere quiet. He holds me tightly and crys long and hard, pooring his feelings out of himself. I hold him emotionless.
I think I am starting to feel something. But it is very faint. Maybe Kaneki can show me. Please, love me. I need that one thing but I know I cannot have that joy. "(Name), you really understand me? Can I trust you. To tell you anything?"
I smile at him knowingly " Its hard, I know. Tell me when you are ready. I will try to visit more often." I pat his head and mess it up a bit. He gives me a toothy grin and leads me out of the cafe.
"Catch ya later!" I yell to him and the old man. Kaneki waves at me and then I am gone.
~time skip to the audition day~
I arrive in the theatre for the audition bright and early on a sunday. I am not very nervous or anything but I just have this feeling something is going to happen today. I don't know what though.
I watch everyone trying out for the pert of Juliet until it is my turn. I get up there and gracefully act a soliloquy by Juliet. everyone claps as I sit back down. The judges look like they really enjoyed it. After all the gurls go for the differbt girl parts we are all told to go in a different room as the guys are next.
I wonder if I get to be Juliet who my supporting male lead will be. I hope ge is cute. I blush, what am I thinking? Do I tgink I could possibly fall in love with someone just by acting with someone. It has never happened before... But what if it did?
Would I be happy with that? I would be too nervous to talk to thrm I would think. It is very nerve wracking actually. What is more important right bow is if I got the part or not. That is what I am really waiting for.
~possibly 40 minutes later~
The guys are done and they come back to us girls calling out the potential for peoples different roles. I am pn the list for Juliet with about 3 other girls. Yay! I have a pretty good chance! But now onto the partner audition. Where we get picked to act with someone epse to see gow good we work together.
We all have to go to different rooms with a judge and that person. When I wnter the room that I am assigned to I gasp. " Do my eyes decieve me?" I say shocked. There is a boy I recognize very well sitting in a chair waiting. "Kaneki!" I yell to him and sit in the seat facing him.
"What are you doing here?" I say my voice peaked with intrest. He takes a moment to answer me and then." I was interested to be in a play again. You know I was in one in high school once. The lead role to be exact as Hamlet himself. I really shined in the spotlit. Or at least that is what my friend Hide said." My mouth is opened wide in shock. I had no clue.
That is so awesome! Is what I was about to say but get cut off when the judge comes in and says"let us begin the reading!" Slamming the door behind him and we do just that.
The scene is dffernt from the one we did at Antekui. We already have the chemisty for eachother within these characters, so it isn't hard to adjust to. I stare into his loving eyes and get lost in them as if I am Juliet. Maybe I am in love with him... Just maybe. When we get to the scene where the script says to kiss, i get utterly nervous.
But we must do it to show that we can do it comfortably on stage. Kaneki grabs me close to him and this all feels very natural. Are faces are inching closer and closer and closer... Until our lips touch and it is full of passion and love for one another.
I would gladly die for him at this moment if need be. Is that just me being Juliet or both? My mind is swirling as he finally backs away from me saying his next lines. And I am filled with joy and happiness that will be never ending.
Finally the audition ends and the judge tells us" that'll be all. Thank you very much." He winks us as if to say we are sure to get the parts. "Thank you for your time!" We both say together bowing.
Me and Kaneki walk out together."oh my gosh! Did you see that? He winked? I think we got the parts. We were totally on point!" I grin at him. " yes that was pretty great wasn't it." He smiles softly. I laugh because of how cute he is. "I am actually pretty glad it was you. If it was anyone else I would have been to nervous to commit." I say.
"To be honest I have never kissed anyone before so I was doing my very best." He says scratching at the back of his head nervously. Awe! That is just perfect. I keep staring at him getting closer and he starts stepping backwards amd I cannot help but tease him because of how adorable he is.
I back him all the way up against a wall. He looks really tense I hope I am not scaring him. "Does this make your heart race?" I pause "or is it just me?" He takes my hand it puts it on his heart and I feel it going crazy fast. "So its mutual. This is what love feels like right? I have never experienced thisfor anyone before... Not even my family."
I start to cry for the first time. Was my life really this crappy. That I can just let it all out finally in the hands of the one I fell in love with? He wraps his arms around me gently as I cry into his shoulder, hiding because of how shameless it feels to cry.
How do people just cry like this? I see it all the time when I have to eat them, the terror in their eyes. "I am a ghoul..." I tell him but is muffled by his shoulder. He lifts my chin up. "What was that?"
"I am a ghoul." We let those words hang there like a hazy mist in the air. It falls over us and we cannot see but then it solidifies and faulters into nothing. Kaneki gets real close to me ear and whispers sadly." Me too." And I am astonished by this. He doesn't seem like one. "Well, half ghoul i had the organs of a ghoul transplanted into me it was accidental or at least that is what I believe. So only one eye can turn ghoul. That is why I where this eyepatch." I cry for poor Kaneki as well. He was a human turned ghoul." How horrible!" I tell him sadly.
"This world truly is a cruel one." I was stating this, not telling, or asking him. " I am fine really. I haven't ate anyone. Although I can only drink coffee. Just like a ghoul would. I get by like that at the cafe." I look at him sadly." You can't do that for long. You can't ignore the inevitable forever. Ghouls must eat humans or else, they die." More tears softly fall from my eyes. " Kaneki, you need to take better care of yourself."
Kaneki looks at me with helpless eyes that plead for my help. " I know. It is sad to say that soon I will have to change my ways. It is part of the ghoul in me." I kiss him softly and longingly and pull away to say. " if you ever need help. I am here for you. Just say the words."
He grabs at the fabric on my stomach and starts getting this extremely horrified look. I want to make that go away." Puh-please help me. It is too hard." He looks like he is going to start to throw because he is heaving." It sucks! I have nothing to throw up. My stomach is empty and I do not know how much longer I can live like this.
"Do you live alone?" I ask him. He nods up and down . "I am running away from home to stay with you. You need someone to take care of you. And my family is to violent." I start to shiver thinking of the them. I am so hopeless.
Kaneki stands up staright putting his arms on my shoulders. "Thank you." He takes me in and sees how uneasy I am. "Tell me anou them. I-if it isn't to much."
I am so scared but I really want to tell him so I do. "They are horrible. They enjoy eating people way to much. They are pure monsters and have no feelings at all. How they eat, is detestable. First they seduce the person and take them home with them. They pleasure them and then they eat em'.
Day after day I hear the screams of all these people. It is hard to drown out. The only way that I can is by acting in plays and always think like those people. My family look down at me, yell at me, degrade me they hurt my physically as well. In places you can not see." I start to cry more.
"Let us go somewhere more private. We will know tomorrow if we get the roles right." I nod at him. We walk off campus and he takes me to his place.
He sits me down on his bed. "I will make some coffee." He says cautious of my feelings right now. He is such a sweetie. His bedroom is so neat and tidy, makes me sort of jealous. I lay down and smell the covers. It smells like him.
So intoxicating I can't take it. Smelling his bed relaxes me like a depressant. Soon he comes back with coffee and I thank him. He sets it down on the desk next to his bed and sits down with me.
"Can I see it." He asks me looking at the ground with a serious face trying not to look at me too much. It takes me a minute to figure out what he means. "My scars?" He nods silently.
"This is going to be a little embarrassing. I am sorry in advance." I tell him. I pull off my shirt slowly and get him to face me. He is a bit flustered at first but his face turns sad. He touches all the scars on my stomach and arms and kisses them all.
I put my hand on my mouth trying to hold in my sobs. No one has ever cared about me or touched these scars so much. "Kaneki!" I gasp. He is so careful to not touch my chest respectfulky and I can't help but love this kid.
"Stay with me." I tell him shaking. He is the best thing that has ever happened. In a cruel world there is still good. "I feel the same about you." He says surprising me. Did he read my mind? I realize that I must have said all of that out loud.
" I will never and I mean never, leave your side." He looks at me longingly and desperate. Somehow we ended up laying down face to face on his bed at some point. He pulls me close and kissses me lovingly. In this kiss I can feel his promise to protect me.
This kiss makes me trust in him more than anything else. If I didn't believe his words than this makes it clear for sure. I did believe him, I just really want to make this moment feel poetic. A moment in a book. A moment to live in forever.
I kiss him honestly, giving my all to him. My hands hesitantly go up in front of me close to him. I am scared that I might hurt him. Like he is as fragile as glass. But then I get courage from him staring deepingo his eyes and I wrap my arms around his neck.
I break away and hang my head back laughing. "You are the best thing that ever came into my life. I love you, Kaneki Ken!" He smiles at me overjoyed at hearing this. "As do I (name)! Thank you... Thank you.." He mumbles under his breath over and over those two little words "thank you".
It is music to my ears. On cue I ironically hear music to my ears when my phone starts ringing (A/N:finally! A pun!). " Miss (name)? You and Kaneki got it! You are going to our Romeo and Juliet. Congratulations! I expect you tomorrow after classes for rehersals. " The director says from behind the other line of the phone.
"Thank you sir! Thank you very much!We will be there. Don't worry I will let Kaneki know. He is here with me now." I day very greatful. This is the best thing that had ever happened next to finding Kaneki! The director says goodbye and hangs up.
Kaneki looks at me curious. "We got the parts! We get to poor out our undying love to eachother on stage!" I say this teasingly in a way. He smiles with his eyes closed cutely.
"That's great! I can't wait for rehersals now. As long as you are there. I can't wait to fall in love with you all over again. I laugh at how amazingly cute he is saying that. " you are great you know that?"
He blushes at being recognized that way. "T-thanks?" He says not knowing the right words to say. I laugh at him and kiss his cheek. "Just play your part right, okay?" I tell him and he replies. " of course, because I am simply one Hell of a butler."
I hit him softly. " you are not Sebastion Michaels. But you are one Hell of a kisser." He blushes as I kiss him again and we kiss until we are out of breath. Before I fall asleep I am holding hand gripping it afraid someone will seperate me from him.
"Kaneki I will always love you. No matter what. Will you accept me?" He takes my hand in his tighter and brings it to his lips slowly kissing it. He looks up at me and says. "Of course. Why wouldn't I? You are so beautiful and kind of heart and mind." We lay close to each other all night desprate for one another.
Behind the scenes Kanekis POV:
Rize is getting on my nerves about my new girlfriend. " move over rize and
Get put of my mind. There is not wnough room for you in my heart." She is confused. " you cannot deny I am part of you still Kaneki. Even though you do not love me. I am still here like it or not.
One day you are going to go through grief and pain that you can never even imagine. You cannot love people because they will only end up getting hurt. It is in your blood now. That part of you is me."
She makes me so angry, I would never hurt (name), she is precious to me. "You are wrong. You cannot change me! You have no right too! I will never change my ways because you. So just, so just leave my mind alone! And get out of my life!"
She stares me down. " I will be back when you are the most desperate and and in need of a change." She say devilishly. It sends a chill up my spine. It scares me, it really does i can tell that she is tellimg the truth.
And it burdens me to think of that because what if what she says is right? Then I will not be able to stop it from happening. My inevitable downfall.
"Save me (name)..." I am mumbling and I feel soft and warm arms around me and a soft voice."everything is going to be okay... Its okay." It is her! the one I love,(name). And I feel safe in her warm embrace once again.
This story was a more difficult story for me because there was more emotion then just witty puns and such like my usual. I really hope it was a great story for all you Kaneki lovers :).