Cold, the room was cold, yet I felt so hot I was sweating, I could feel the little drops of sweat, rolling down my skin, from my forehead to my cheek and then my chin. Mocking me, teasing my skin, and the voices, ohh the voices in my head, speaking, yelling. The room felt like it had run out of oxygen, and I was struggling to inhale the little that was remaining. Infact I was no longer in my living room, I was stuck in hell, a special kind of hell...
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"Cammon, sweetheart, he knew what was coming for him" Klaus whispered his voice soothing. I looked at my bloody hands and cut knuckles, then looked up at him my body shaking and chest heaving from my panting.
"I.. Is he ?" I couldn't even finish my sentence, I couldn't get the word out. I could feel the warm tears rolling down my cheeks on that cold windy night, the wind would normally sooth me but not tonight, it just felt cold. Nik looked behind me at the body lying unconsciously then back at me a smile never leaving his lips.
"Dont worry about him, you were just getting your job done and you did it well" he nodded then paused gritting his teeth "So I do not fucking understand why you're crying !" he yelled, his jaw clenching and I moved back a bit to avoid anything physical. My throat felt dry and soar, my nose running from all the crying. He never yelled but when he did that meant he was angry, real angry... I have scars to prove it.
"S-sorry" I stammered before looking behind me at the man lying there, he was young, maybe in his twentys, did he have a family ? had I ruined someone's family ? Would I go to jail ?, I was about to turn 18 my life was only begining, would I spend the rest of it in jail ?.
"Listen Ali, don't you ever cry because of something as foolish as this, you killed, so what ?!, that's just life" he laughed shrugging like it was nothing... I ki..killed ? I... I took someone's life, what the fuck ?, my chest suddenly felt tight, it was painful to breath, I had never felt like this, I looked at my hands trembling "Now cammon, wipe those stupid tears and let's go celebrate, my men will take care of the rest"... I-.
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Screw him "Screw you !" I crash the pack of cigarettes in my hand and throw it across the room hearing the soft noise as it lands on the floor.
In the midst of all this confusion I watch as Sparks bends down and picks up the pack of cigarette then looks at me questioningly and then it hits me like a heavy brick. He knows her, he has indeed met Sparks. What the hell would he do to her ? Kidnap her ? Kill her ? Sell her body organs ?. Damn it, I was running out of air again, my lungs growing tighter, my breath growing heavier, my chest in pain.
"Oh my God are you okay ?" Flame's eyes widened as she stumbled on her own steps rushing over to me. I bend, proping my hands on my knees, trying to slow my breaths, as the image of that unconscious man quickly passed through my mind, the image of Sparks talking to Klaus, his evil smile... I could hear my own heartbeat... Slow and painful.
"Mmmh, yeah" I groan finally raising my head and facing her "I... Shit" I let out a breath, it was painful to breath again "You look tired, you should probably sleep here, I'll drive you home tomorrow" I explained to her. She was drunk and I honestly wasn't in the right state of mind to be behind a wheel rightnow. Damn right, I'm responsible.
"Ookay" she stared at me suspiciously "But its you I'm worried about, wanna talk about it ?" she asks and follows me as I walk quickly towards the front door to lock it. I knew there was no need for him to be back tonight but one can never be too safe am I right ?.
"I'm not about to talk about my family and fears to some drunk girl, this is not a movie" I speak as I walk up the stairs to my room with Sparks following me, till I get to my closet to my closet.
"I'm not just some drunk girl Cain, I'm your friend"... Yeah right... Friend. I throw her one of my t-shirts.
"Put that on, I would offer you pants, but I am honestly having a bad night and you walking around with that t-shirt alone would make it a little better" she frowns but says nothing as she proceeds to undress. You know what they say, honesty is the best policy.
I walk to the bathroom to splash some water on my face, the cold tap water cooling my warm skin making me wince then sigh, enjoying the feeling it gave. I feel as it runs down my face, washing away the sweat, my angry tears, my sins. I look up and stare at the mirror, the reflection stares back at me blankly and I think to myself, but my sins are bigger, right ? way too big to be washed away by water. I look at my wet, cold shaking hands then back at my reflection, my cold stare causing me to question myself even more. I think we all have that moment where we just stare at ourselves in the mirror and question our actions... All our actions.
"You killed so what ?!" his words play again at the back of my mind and I blink slowly still staring at that person staring back at me. So what ?!. Thanks alot Nik, you've brought a lot of trauma into my life... But staring at the person before me, I knew it wasn't all his fault, it was just as much mine as it was his.
"Wanna come to bed ?" a voice Snaps me back to reality, sweet, sweet reality. I look at the reflection of Flame and smile then decide it isn't enough, so I turn and look behind me. Her long dark, straight hair was dangling behind her back, with some stray strands brushing against her face. Her short black dress was now gone and she was now in my blue thigh lengthed v-neck t-shirt, exposing her golden smooth, edible looking skin.
"Yeah, definitely..." I quickly answer and follow her behind.
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"So that's your dad huh ?" she quietly asks after we settle in bed both lying on our backs.
"Yes" I answer.
"You didn't look so happy to see him" she speaks, her voice so cute and childish, yet so full of curiousity... just like a child huh.
"I wasn't" I answer. This was not what I had in mind for the night. I knew it would end up with me and a girl in bed just not like this.
"Why is that ?" she goes on. She really wanted to talk about it right now.
"Well he doesn't exactly make me feel happy" I answer simply.
"Mmhm, I noticed" she drags her words "I know you don't want to talk about it, but I just want you to know that I'm here" she adds and I feel as her slender fingers slide in my hands and intertwines with my fingers, spreading warmth all over my body. This was not what I planned for the night but I'm not complaining.
"That's very comforting to know Sparks" I told her honestly and though I know she couldn't do much, this felt okay... It felt, peaceful. I don't have that most of the time. It felt like I could only think of one thing when with her and that thing was her, and the thought of her brought some sort of calm inside me.
She turns and lays on her side and I feel her intense stare, almost burning a hole in my skin. I stare down at her. "What ?" I whisper.
"You'll be okay" she whispers though she didnt know what was going on and I smile painfully... Tempted a little, I strech my hand and move the hair covering her face, tucking it behind her ear.
"It's not that easy you know" I tell her.
"Why ?" she asks. Damn she's so pure, so nice, so... Innocent. Did it mean that me being close to her like this would make her impure ? Would I stain her with my deeds ?
"I'm not a good person Sparks" I say simply and look away avoiding those clear angel-like eyes, dropping my hand from her cheek. "I dont even know why you talk to me".
"Hey, don't say that, first, we both know, you're the one who forces our conversations" she laughs and I chuckle a little then I feel her hand squeezing mine gently "And no one is all good, we all have made mistakes, some big, some small, but they are all just mistakes".
"You don't get it" I stop her "I..." I sigh feeling a sharp pain in my chest "I get angry Sparks-" I remember the blood, the grunts, the pressure he had put on me, the anger I had as a kid "I did things- I just... Fuck". I gasp as I feel her hand cup my cheek and she forces me to look at her just as I feel the stinging of tears in my eyes.
"I dont know what it is you did, that's for sure, but it's all in the past Cain, let's live in the present yeah ?" she spoke so quietly she convinced me to nod my head. It was as if she was compelling me, she was a brain Whisperer, my brain whisperer. "Let's make up for that one wrong thing, we'll do that right ?" she asks and although I'm convinced I can't, I nod again.
I had lost myself in her bright, clear eyes... They were as bright as the stars, you could say I was lost in the milky way. I find myself being slowly drawn into her and before I know it I find my lips already locked with her silky, soft, puffy, tasty lips in what seemed like a simple, sweet kiss. She leads the way this time and I sigh quietly for the first time feeling vulnerable in someone's arms as she caresses my cheek softly. I pull her to me as her lips twist with mine rhythmically, then she pulls away.
She smiles sweetly and kisses my cheek. "Good night Cain" she whispers and I gulp, blinking slowly.
"Goodnight Sparks" I whisper back and she gets comfortable placing her head on my chest, her leg on top of mine and her arms around my waist.
See, alot has happened in one night and I'm still so unsure of what I'll do tomorrow but the one thing I've learned is Sparks should always be drunk.
I smile to myself licking my lips slowly.
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Re-editor me here, I'm glad I'm almost half way there in this journey of editing my poor editing, and I can't wait to work on the new chapter after this, see you there I guess. Comment and vote don't be shy, I keep telling you guys this.