!!!SEXUAL/ MATURE CONTENT AHEAD!!!
3 days before
she was wearing fucking black.
I think I was dying a little on the inside when I watched her step out of the house.
the moment washing away all the shitty conversations I had had this morning with my parents. both dad and Karen sitting Fletcher and me down to talk about how disappointed they were in us for fighting and whatever else they deemed not good. I'd been sat down for similar conversations earlier in the year before I'd met Rosie. all over my excessive drinking and all the girls that came back home with me. the conversation had been very boring then and it still was now.
but Rosie, fuck, Rosie changed every mood I was ever feeling into a good one.
even now, my bruises hurting all over, my head still filled with anger towards Max fucking Arnold, I could sit and enjoy as I watched Rosie pull the little golden clips from her hair and place them into a bowl next to her mirror. her parents sleeping in their room downstairs and us up here as Rosie softly hummed to herself as I looked for something for us to watch.
but I wasn't really paying the tv any attention when she was just doing her normal routine. she was so fucking beautiful doing normal fucking things. I watched as she brushed her hair, still dressed in that little black dress.
"you're staring," she laughed eyes watching me from the mirror.
"you stare at me sometimes," I say and I can see her blush. she turns away to try and not let me see it but I do.
I watched as she slowly placed her brush down looking back up at me in the mirror. dark hair falling around her long and wavy, brown eyes blinking over my image. her face was cast in a golden glow from her lamp next to her, it only highlighted her features and how elegant and gorgeous she was. smile soft, the one dimple she had showing on her cheek that I so badly wanted to kiss.
she stood and I watched as she turned to me hands folded shyly in front of her. she moved to me standing between my legs before she wrapped her arms around my neck. I couldn't help but reach out and hold her at her hips. let my thumbs rub circles there as she smiled.
"Harry?" she asked hands twisting in my hair, I swear id never get tired of her doing it.
"yes, love?"
she lets out a small breath shaking her head. she pulls me closer to her body, hugging me.
"I-" she pulled away for a second looking down at me hands moving to brush the loose curls hanging around my face. she bit her lip before softly whispering,
"I love you,"
I almost felt as if I had been hit once more in the chest, all the breath knocked from me in an instant. who knew words could have such an impact on a person. that words could make joy bloom inside you like something wild and bright. fuck this felt good. but I responded with,
"What?" the word whispered and I could feel it leave my lips and I wanted to take it back.
she blinked back at me speechless and I knew it wasn't at what I had said but I knew she thought I didn't want her to say it but I did, I wanted her to say it a million times over. "no, fuck, not like that" I muttered and it only came out worst, her hands loosened on me, she tried to pull away.
"I'm s-sorry i-" she began but I cut her off standing and pulling her into a kiss.
I cupped her face in my hands and for a second she was shocked not responding before she began to kiss me back. I could taste her watermelon chapstick as her bottom lip fit perfectly between mine. I brushed my tongue softly over her lip asking for any kind of permission to deepen the kiss.
she wrapped her arms around me, opening her mouth as we stumbled back my legs hitting the bed almost causing me to fall. my hands going back to her hips to steady her. the action caused her to pull away, a small laugh into my mouth vibrating there.
"say it again," I begged feeling myself weaken before her.
she looked at me, eyes softening, "I love you,"
and I couldn't help to smile like an idiot probably embarrassing myself over the simple words.
"I fucking love you, Rosie,"
she smiled so sweetly. biting her lip the smallest bit, dimple on display trying to downplay the way her features wanted to break out into a huge grin. eyes squinting, freckles showing on pink cheeks.
"I love you so fucking much," I muttered again as if this time I was admitting it wholeheartedly to myself. I knew I loved her but saying it aloud made it stick.
she lifted up on her toes bringing me down for another kiss. without breaking I sat down pulling her to be straddling my lap. her hands in my hair, thumbs over my cheekbones. I let my hands travel up her sides and back down her thighs.
I couldn't quite describe how happy I was at that moment. both of us laughing into our kisses, each broken with bumps of our noses, caresses of hands. rosie's arms soon locked around my neck both of us so close, breathing into a kiss I felt all the way to my bones.
in moments we broke apart and she was tugging at my shirt. I pulled it off and her cool hand tracked down my hot skin. fingers soft over my bruises, over my tattoos. she looked up from under her lashes softly letting her hands fall to the edge of her dress.
slowly she began to lift the fabric over her head and I felt my heart begin to race out of my chest as her dress fell to the floor.
I watched as she took in a breath biting her lip as she waited for my reaction. all I could muster was, "you're so fucking perfect,"
I watched as her cheeks grew red, hand hovering over her stomach, I softly pushed it away. holding her by her sides I brushed my thumbs over her skin that was dusted with an array of beauty marks.
"Harry?" she asked hands brushing back more of my curls.
"Rosie?" I asked her eyes pouring into mine, soft and brown.
"i-i think I'm ready," she whispered hands twisting nervously in front of her.
holy fuck
"I want you to be my first," she whispered body trembling under my touch. I felt as if I had gone numb, blinking back at her. "I want to love you in all ways possible, I want you," she continued and all I could do was watch her as her chest began to turn pink.
"a-are you s-sure?" the words embarrassing as they left my mouth. I had to swallow to even think about more words. "seriously Rosie I don't want you to regret anything, and it might hurt and I don't want to hurt you,"
"I want to and I don't care," and when I still looked at her questionably she shook her head before letting out a big breath. "harry I want to have sex with you,"
"Rosie I'd fucking love to have sex with you but I want you to be one hundred per-"
"I am," she cut me off, "you're truly the only person I could ever imagine doing this with, the only person I want or would let. harry I love you,"
"I love you," the words so right. "but I want you to be sure, I want you to tell me if you want to stop at any time. don't you dare care about me, this is about you not me okay?"
she nods shyly hair still around her in waves covering up her bra. I lifted one of my hands pushing the hair behind her and she shivered as I exposed the pale pink fabric.
I lowered my head placing a light kiss over the base of her throat, moreover her collarbones, her chest. I sucked at her neck and her head rolled back at the feeling, hands moving to my shoulders to hold herself up.
"Can I take this off, love?" I asked hand brushing over the edge of her bra.
"yes harry," she whispered and I unhooked her bra and she slowly lowered it from her body.
she tried to shyly cover herself again but I couldn't help but shoot any of her worries down because fuck she was absolutely perfect.
"you're so fucking beautiful," I mumbled feeling myself grow stiff in my jeans.
I let my thumb trace the thin skin under her breast, kissing over the supple skin causing her to shiver, goosebumps rising over her. hands twisting tighter in my hair.
"I'm going to lay you down okay?" I asked and she nodded as I lifted her turning us over.
her hair was spread out around her, breathing steadily, two new red marks on her skin, one on her neck the other one on her breasts. she looked like a holy angel cast in the faded golden glow of the lamp in the corner of her room.
I couldn't help to not let myself kiss over every beauty mark laid out over her skin. every kiss a ghost of a touch not quite touching her. her back arched up to me at the light contact.
"do you still want me to continue?" kissing right over the top of her light blue underwear.
"Please," she whispered and I raised one of my hands to intertwine our fingers. I brought out linked hands to my lips kissing the back of her hand before moving lower to kiss on her thigh.
her goosebumps had bloomed here too and I kissed over her spotted freckles here. softly with one hand I lifted her knee and kissed on her inner thigh rising higher with each peck.
"Can I touch you?" I asked knowing she knew what I meant.
"yes harry," she breathed and I nodded feeling myself getting excited.
I kissed lightly over her center, over her panties before I let her hand go so I could pull them from her body.
sliding the fabric down her soft legs she quivered and when the cool air hit her wet area she let out a shuddering breath.
I grabbed her hand again and with the other I let my pointer finger trace up the length of her. rosies breath shaking and I was weak at the sight of her.
"I'm going to use my fingers to try and stretch you out a little so it hopefully won't hurt as much later on okay?"
she nodded her head back, biting her lip and I kissed at her thigh again. "tell me if you want to stop,"
"no no keep going," she said squeezing my hand to tell me to continue.
slowly I entered one finger pumping softly then adding a second. her hips sunk into the bed and I kissed over her clit causing her to let out a soft moan.
"I'm going to add one more love,"
she nodded eyes closed as I added another finger, she let in a breath squeezing my hand. I lowered my head taking her clit in my mouth sucking and flicking my tongue.
"oh god harry," she moaned her other hand twisting in the sheet.
the sight of her turned me on so fucking much. I almost couldn't contain myself. but I wanted her to finish because I knew I wouldn't last long, not when it's been so long, and I knew this would be the best I ever fucking had.
and soon she was coming undone, moaning softly, back rising off the bed, hand squeezing mine, pulling slightly on my hair as she quivered. I licked her wetness from my fingers, kissing over her inner tights again.
"do you still want to do this Rosie?" I asked fully prepared to stop if she asked or even hesitated but she didn't. instead, she sat up hair falling around her body long and beautiful moving to kiss me.
I held her waist as she held my face, kissing me deeply.
I was so fucking happy in this moment, being here with her, loving her so much I couldn't contain myself. she pulled away muttering to my lips, "I love you harry, I love you,"
I pulled at the button of my pants, tugging on the zipper but before taking them off I pulled my wallet from my back pocket, a single condom there.
Rosie bit her lip nervously and I tugged my pants down. her eyes going down briefly to see the outline of me in my underwear.
"tell me if-"
"I know Harry," she smiled brushing more hair from my face.
I lowered my underwear and she pressed kisses to my jaw. slowly I slid on the condom. "lay back now," I whispered and she nodded letting herself lay back in the position she had been in before.
once more I couldn't resist showering her body in kisses, letting her know I loved every bit of her.
I leaned over her kissing at her jaw, behind her ear before asking one more time, "I'm going to start so tell me now if you want to stop,"
"I want you harry, I love you," she whispered and I knew it was true, felt it radiating through me.
I kissed her lips as I pushed in as slow as I possibly could. she gasped into the kiss hands gripping my shoulder as I let out a low moan at how amazing she felt.
"oh fuck," the words deep and into her lips.
I went slow until I was nearly all the way in, I stopped letting her get adjusted, "want me to continue love?" and she nodded slowly opening her eyes as I slowly slid out and back again.
she bit her lip hands going from my shoulder to cup my cheeks. I found a slow steady rhythm "holy shit you feel so fucking good," I muttered kissing her deeply as I continued.
just as I had predicted I could feel myself building up, knew this was the best, the one filled with more love than I could describe.
she kissed the edge of my mouth over and over hands moving to my hair twisting there and pulling on the strands.
"Rosie I love you so so much," the words so right at the moment.
I came undone, moaning into her neck as she kissed the side of my head holding me close to her, everything so fucking perfect.
"I love you harry, I love you,"
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sorry for any mistakes I will not be fixing them <3