Vulnerable

Chapter 25

Sunday, October 30th

Dear... diary? Dad? Logan? The police? I don't know who I'm writing this for, but I needed to write it down incase something goes wrong.

It's September 30th. Uncle Benji was released from prison last night. This morning dad went out, Logan and I were alone, but he needed to go to the shops quickly.

While he was out Benji attacked me. He had been in the house hiding all morning, watching us. He threatened me, and made me give him the house keys. He told me to stop being intimate with Logan. He said if I refused, he would kill Logan's mum with an overdose.

I lied to Logan when he found me, I told him that I just got scared, and I think I managed to convince him. I didn't want to lie, and if you're reading this I'm so sorry, but I didn't know what else to do.

Megan.

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Wednesday, October 3rd.

Benji hasn't made any moves but I'm so paranoid. He said he'd know if I told anyone or if I was intimate with Logan but I didn't know how. Maybe he had cameras? Or recording devices? I have started wearing clothes in my own shower because I am so scared he's watching.

I know he didn't lie about watching me and Logan from the closet, because I found the white stains on the floor. I cried all night. After 8 years free from his torment, here he is again, the threat of  him hurting me again looming over me all day everyday.

I managed to convince dad to change the locks, saying I lost my keys. He suggested just getting a new one cut but i know he can sense how paranoid I've been recently and booked a locksmith for tomorrow.

I asked Logan for some space, and he's been keeping his distance, but it's killing me to be apart from him. I love him and I hate having to lie to him.

I've been going to college. Trying to keep up with my work, despite being two weeks behind because of my hospital incident. I'm so paranoid. I can't focus, and I'm always looking over my shoulder. The whispers and name calling has eased off, but the stares didn't stop. No one can forget the face of the girl in a sex video that was sent to the whole college.

I'm so scared.

Megan

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Thursday, October 4th

He came last night. I didn't get the locks changed in time.

It was the middle of the night, and I was woken up when I felt him climbing on me. He brought things with him. My hands were cuffed to my headboard, my eyes were blindfolded and he put a ball gag in my mouth. No matter how hard I screamed, barely a sound came out.

My dad was home, and Benji knew that. He was telling me that he was saving the 'big stuff' for when we could properly be together. He stripped me, and from behind the blindfold, I could see a camera flashing. He touched himself while taunting me, saying how much he loved my body and how he wished he could have been with me as I grew. He took more pictures after he came on my stomach.

He threatened me again before he left. Reminding me how easy it would be to get Cole to kill Logan's mum with an overdose. 

I don't know what to do. I don't want her to die because of me but I can't go back to being Benji's toy. I didn't understand what he was doing before, but now I'm terrified. I don't think I could survive it again.

Megan

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Monday, October 8th.

It's been scarily quiet. I'm so paranoid. He must know the locks have changed by now. He's going to be angry.