College years- lams fanfic

Chapter 21

Trigger Warning: self harm.

*Time skip to the first day back at collage, the day before classes start*

The coffee shop

John POV

We arrive at campus with Washington and we walk up to our dooms where Laf and Herc are already waiting. "Hey guys um this might be a little awkward for you 2 but I requested to move into Herc's room so tomorrow me and John are swapping," Laf says as soon as we walk in.

"You're kidding right?" Alex says dropping his bag.

"No....sorry?" Laf replies nervously.

"It's fine, I guess." He says walking over to his bed.

I walk into what's not my room anymore and pack up some of the stuff I left, Herc comes in after he. "So how was the last week?" He asks sitting on the couch.

"I don't kinda just awkward ya know, I mean we still had to share a room cuz we both refused to be the one to move, I'm pretty sure Washington and Mather hated us the whole time." I reply and he just nods. "So I guess you and Laf are going well then?"

"Yeah....Do you think you and Alex will he back together?" He asks, I knew this was coming I just don't know what to say. I mean do I?

"I don't know, part of me wants to but then there's all the reasons not to." I reply and he looks surprised.

"Oh okay," He says.

🦟🦗🦟🦗 *Dancing*

Hot pants🔥: Anyone wanna go to a bar tonight?

Team gay😎: Y e s

French fri🍟: oui

Look around💙: what time?

Hot pants🔥: idk like 8?

We do or die❤⏳: Sure.

I forgot I haven't changed his contact yet. I swear everything today is trying to remind me we used to date and now we're broken up.

By your side🧡: I'm guessing I'm designated driver again even thought I'm the only one actually aloud to drink"?

In da place to be🍻: Yep

Team Gay😎: obviously

By your side🧡: Smh

*In da place to be🍻 changed we do or die❤⏳'s name to running out of time📝*

*Running out of time📝 changed I like you a lot😘🍻's name to 3 pints of Sam Adams🍻*

French fri🍟: *Uncomfortable laughter* so what's everyone's first class tomorrow?

Running out of time📝: English

In da place to be🍻: English

Hot pants🔥: English

French fri🍟: Oh yeah I forgot we have that together.

In da place to be🍻: yeah.....

I put my phone down, it's only 11 and I have to go to work at 12 and I finish at 5. I only got the job last week, it's only at a coffee shop but it pays okay and I needed something to do during the day so I wasn't stuck with Alex. I get ready and leave, I'll be a little early but it's fine.

It's around 3 a clock now and so far it's been pretty slow. I hear the door open and I look up. Alex, of course he gets coffee here, I'm on register so I'm the one who has to speak to him, great. "Hi what can I get for you?" I sigh, It's a script we don't get to just say whatever we want, I wish we could though.

"Since when do you work here?" He asks.

"Since last week." I reply.

"Cool, Um yeah so I'll get a black coffee with uh.....3 shots of expresso" He says.

"Only 3?" I say and he smiles a little.

"Yeah, well I guess I can't have heaps of coffee and get drunk on the same night." he says. I put is order thought and since there's no one else in the shop and I don't have to make the coffee we actually talk a little.

"So what do you think the other's have planned for tonight?" I ask.

"What do you mean?"

"Well it's no secret they're trying to get us back together, think about it. the first time we went to a bar they dared us to make out then we ended up sleeping in the same bed then the night we broke up they took us to the same bar, now Laf's moving in with Herc so we're forced to live together all the time." I say and he laughs. Damn it why did he have to laugh, I don't think I'll ever be able to not love his laugh.

Alex POV

"Well it's no secret they're trying to get us back together, think about it. the first time we went to a bar they dared us to make out then we ended up sleeping in the same room then the night we broke up they took us to the same bar, now Laf's moving in with Herc so we're forced to live together all the time." John says and I laugh, he's right they're probably planning something.

"Why don't we get back at them for all that?" I suggests and he smiles, that damn smile.

"Yes! okay so how are we gonna do it?" He asks. My coffee arrives and I sit at the bar.

"it has to be believable. I bet they're gonna make us play 7 minutes in heaven so all we have to do in be kissing when they open the door and then when we come out and act differently." I say.

"Yes that's perfect! They're faces are gonna be priceless and Laf's reaction is gonna be the best" He yells and we both laugh. We talk for a little while until some other customers come in and he has to get back to work.

"Okay I'll see ya later, What time do you finish?" I ask standing up.

"5" He says before serving the next person.

I get in my car and sigh. That's the first conversation in a while where it really felt like I was talking to him not my ex. Of course now I hate myself even more because I think I'm falling in love with him again, not that I ever stopped.

I arrive back at the dooms and I walk into the bathroom. I see the razor, I told myself I would stop when we came back but I don't know something about it is just so satisfying. I know I shouldn't but I like the feel of the pain, of course it hurts but I mean after what I did to John I deserve it.

I lock the door and then sit down. I grab the razor and pull up my sleeves. I cut my arm multiple times until there's no room on that arm. I cut the other arm. Soon they're both numb with pain. I clean up the blood, roll down my sleeves and walk out like nothing happened.

Soon Laf walks in with a box. "Hey I'm just grabbing some stuff I left here." He says and I just nod and go back to scrolling though tiktok. At about quarter past 5 John walks into the room.

"How was the rest of your shift?" I ask.

"It was okay, this one bitch kept sending back her ice latte because it was to cold but other than that it was alright." He replies and I nod.