Alone | JungkookxMalereader | ✔

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"So lost, I'm faded"
- Alan Walker

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Wake up, shower, eat, sing, dance, sing, train, eat, shower, sleep. It was the same routine, every single day. It was tiring, and he knew it from the very first start, he had chosen this lifestyle because he wanted to sing and dance till he is old. 

The problem is that his body was slowly giving up, day by day, week by week and month by month his body slowly began to give up. They haven't gotten any holiday for at least a year. 
Jeongguk was slowly falling apart, and with the feeling of being alone all the time, it just didn't help. 

He is the Golden Maknae, he has gotten the title trough the years. He knew he had to keep that title, he didn't want to disappoint anyone. The fans, his family, the company or his members, they would be disappointed if he got weak and couldn't beat everyone in everything. 

Like everyday he would think to himself: "I don't want to be alone anymore, I just want to love myself... Why can't I?..."

No one would hear him, he wouldn't and couldn't call for help. No one would hear his voice calling if he called for help. 

One night after coming back from fitness and food was ready he heard the leader say: "Guy's after this, we have to pack-" He looks up from his plate and says: "Why? Where are we going?" 
"Europe, we are starting out Europe tour this Monday, and we are starting in Norway" Says the leader as he puts some more food onto his plate. "Okay, do we get time to walk around?" Jimin-hyung says with a hopeful voice. "I'm gonna ask our manager, but I think so" 

"Thanks for food hyung, I'm going to take a shower and then I'm off to bed" He stands up and brings his plate with him to wash it. When he gets into the kitchen, he starts to wash the dirty plate. He looks outside the big window that is in front of him, to see the dark sky with stars shining bright, and unexpected a shooting star fly across the sky. 

Jeongguk isn't superstitious, he doesn't believe in things like if you see a black cat then it means unluck. But just for fun, he decides to wish cause he is bored and sleepy. He closes his eyes and wishes.

"I wish not to be alone, and find a way to love myself"

He laughs to himself as he opens his eyes. He knows it doesn't work, but he tried and whatever happened in space is up to himself to believe in. Jeongguk walks off to bed after saying goodnight to his hyung. 

Who would hear him anyway?

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