Demi Caught Me (discontinued)

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HANNAH'S POV! I SWEAR IT WILL BE DEMI'S SOON!

I start wringing my hands together, I'm fucking nervous.

"HEY GUYS!" Demi yells.

I can hear incoherent talking and screaming, but I'm just trying to figure out how not to have an anxiety attack.

Deep breathing. Just breathe. I say to myself.

"SO GUYS Y'ALL MIGHT BE WONDERING WHO THE HELL THIS GIRL IS!"

I hear loud screams of "HEMI" being chanted.

"AND I'M HERE TO TELL YOU THAT THIS BEAUTIFUL GIRL IS MY GIRLFRIEND, HANNAH. ALSO, TO ALL THE HATERS OUT THERE, FUCK YOURSELVES, BECAUSE I'M HAPPY IN THIS RELATIONSHIP!" Demi says.

I can leave soon, I keep telling myself. All the words keep getting mixed together. I can't hear correctly. I can't think straight. I can't screw this up though.

Finally, Demi grabs my hand and whispers in my ear, "Babe, it's gonna be okay."

I relax. Five words. Five little words, each no more than five letters. Five words. Eighteen letters. That's all it took to relax me.

"So, here's to Hemi." Demi says.

"Before I fall too fast

Kiss me quick, but make it last

So I can see how badly this will hurt me
When you say goodbye

Keep it sweet, keep it slow
Let the future pass, and don't let go
But tonight I could fall too soon
Under this beautiful moonlight

But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing, you've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling, but please don't catch me

See this heart won't settle down
Like a child running scared from a clown
I'm terrified of what you do
My stomach screams just when I look at you

Run far away so I can breathe
Even though you're far from suffocating me
I can't set my hopes too high
'Cause every hello ends with a goodbye

But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing, you've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling, but please don't catch me

So now you see why I'm scared
I can't open up my heart without a care
But here I go, it's what I feel
And for the first time in my life I know it's real

But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing, you've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling so please don't catch me

If this is love, please don't break me
I'm giving up so just catch me"

I hear loud screams and laughing, I look out to the audience and see people smiling. People are genuinely happy for Demi and me, so that's why I do what I do next.

I kiss her.

In front of everyone.

I don't care that people can see. I don't care that people will ridicule me. I don't care. All I care about in that moment is Demi.

I'm the one who pulls away from the kiss first, but even after we're done there are still screams.

"I'm leaving now." I whisper into Demi's ear.

"Okay. Stay at the side. As soon as I'm done I'll come and get you."

I nod and hurry off the stage,

"WHO'S READY TO GET THE PARTY STARTED?" Demi yells.

I smile despite my mood, Demi makes me smile.

Of course, my smile only lasts a minute as I remember what my mom did to me. I pull out my blade, acutely aware that Demi will be pissed, but not caring.

I pull off the bandages from where my mom clawed me and drag the blade along my wrist.

As soon as I see the first dot of blood I calm down. I do this mny times, not caring how much I bleed or how deep they are.

I'm not trying to kill myself, but if I went that far I wouldn't care.

With every cut I make I make sure it's for a reason.

A few for my mom.

A few for Bree.

A few for the dad that I never had.

A few for myself.

A few for all the haters.

A few for my own relief.

When I finally look down my arm is crimson. The blood has run down onto my pants, on the floor.

"Fuck. Great job." I mutter to myself.

I look around me for tissues, and when I see some, I grab them.

I press them to my arm, not worrying about the blood on my pants.

I wince at the pressure, loosening my hand a little bit.

"NOW FOR MY LAST SONG.." I hear Demi start, but tuning the rest of it out.

Before she comes I need to clean up.

I desperately wipe up the blood, trying to wipe away any evidence, but knowing Demi will notice.

I had just thrown the tissue away when Demi comes bounding up to me.

"Did you like it?"

"Yeah. It was great." I say, forcing a smile.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing."

"Okay.." Demi says, narrowing her eyes at me.

"Can I see your wrist?" Demi asks.

"Uh. Why?" I say.

"I wanna see it." Demi says, reaching for my arm.

"No." I say, yanking my arm back.

"Yes." She says, finally grabbing it.

Demi takes the bandage off again and gasps.

"When did you do these?" Demi asks quietly.

"Just now." I mumble.

"So, I could've stopped you?" Demi asks, her voice cracking with emotion.

"No."

"Why not? What do I need to do so that you won't do this again?"

"Nothing." I talk in a monotone, giving away none of my emotions.

"Hannah... Please talk to me." Demi pleads.

"See my mouth moving and words coming out? That's called talking." I say, my voice still flat.

"Don't be a smart ass." Demi snaps.

"I'm trying to help you." She says next, softer.

"I can't help it."

"Maybe I can." Demi says, pulling me into a hug.

OKAY A/N!!! OKAY, SOOO NOT MUCH DRAMA ND SUCH, BUT I SWEAR I'M JUST  SETTING THE PLOT RIGHT NOW SO YOU CAN SEE WHO IM MAKING DEMI AND HANNAH TO BE. THERE WILL BE MUCH DRAMA. AND FOR EVERYONE ASKING FOR SMUT, YES THERE WILL BE SMUT. OKAYYYYYYYYYYY! THANK FOR READING.