There was some confusion on what was going on here: The Beast is my addiction. The Monster is myself.
The parts where I'm talking to "The Beast" I've now put in Italics.
The parts where I'm speaking to "Anonymous" I've now put in bold.
-About my addiction-
Leech this corrosion, -poison from me,
Before it snatches life from lungs infested
One's I will to move for solely you
One's I'd rip from encasement provided requested
Draw untimely dismissal before it's won
Take my seconds, years back we'll be missing
Embrace me now, before I fall undone
Understand it's caught me, wise tale from the diminishing
I forsake the self-infliction I once mistook for fixes
No longer let The Beast hold me so entranced
Hurry and consume me before he finishes
Don't let him advance, don't give him a chance
You disappear when addiction slithers to my core
It pushes My Love, My Life from center
Why do I allow myself to crave for more?
Why do I always welcome venom to enter?
Please leave me, don't feed from me any longer
Desert me, depart wicked from what I trust
Mutually parasitic, don't grieve for me- The Monster
Don't mourn for me, for this curse I brought to us
Don't be mistaken, It's I that's squandered our journey
I beseech to be released from this piling regret
A fool, I cast a personal spell- I've back-stroked in the mercury.
Self resentment weighs heavy on my branded head
When is discarding ever complete?
When I willingly hold my putrid vice?
Pantomiming pure, epitomizing cheat
Why pin blame when it's still I that pays the price?
I deserve every style of pointed finger
Let me rust, because I'm disgusted too
Every drag through the mud still lingers
How do I hold on, when I broke apart two
The Beast or The Monster
Who's to blame for adding to the fallen
The Priest or the message
Who's to pay the price for declining
How dare I call you burden?
While I hoist you on my back
How can I cry from burning?
When I begged my breath to crack?
Who's doing the preying?
The Beast or The Monster
Who's most aiding in the ailing?
Which isn't worth it, who are we after?
You can't prey on what's not there
I've bored of playing with the flame
You've not won yet, you don't fight fair
I won't let you cheat me from the game
Shield your eyes when I'm falling
Don't watch as I'm pulled and claw
Cease to save me, until I'm gravely trying
Then lift me from my crawl
Please take my eleventh-hour apology
Please remain the owner of my heart
Please attack anything that strikes for me
Please wait at finish while I start
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PoetryPoetry just from actual personal experience. On various subjects as in Addiction,Loss,Relationships, Suicide, Homophobia, Hate, Fear etc. Have a look if you laze around to it.
