Ruby's POV
I was staring outside my bedroom window, still having no idea what I was going to do.
Joe told me he was sorry.
Zoe told me Joe was sorry.
But what he said still hurt.
It hurt so much.
I knew Joe was my dad; I knew I was his own flesh and blood. But why say that stuff about someone you love? Let alone your child?
My bedroom door opened. I turned to see it was Joe, and by the wetness of his eyes it was evident that he'd been crying.
"Ruby, please don't go" he begged.
In that moment, I couldn't keep myself together. I burst into tears. Joe embraced me in a hug and I was too emotional to protest. I just allowed myself to sink into his arms. As much as I didn't like him at that moment, I had to admit, he gave very good hugs; his body was naturally warm so it gave a weird sense of warmth, like a loving warmth.
"I'm so sorry" he said as he hugged my crying body.
I didn't know what to say; I just couldn't stop crying; it was as if all the emotions I had since I'd lost my mum were just pouring out all in that very moment. I just couldn't stop.
"Shh, shh, it's ok" he said in a soft voice as he rubbed my back soothingly. "Just let it all out, let all the tears out. It's ok"
The way Joe and I were acting right then made it look like we'd never had a single argument in our lives; like we'd never gone through all that trauma; as if the struggles weren't real. It was so strange, yet I didn't want to bring up that I was still hurt. I didn't want to bring up the bad vibes again. I'd never shared a good moment like that with Joe until that very cuddle. Fair enough I had the panic attack and he helped, but I still hadn't managed to see his softer side until that very hug. That very moment. I didn't want that moment to end. It just made me think.
I actually had a dad.
End of part 54
A/N:
I can't apologise enough. This chapter is all over the place. I'm sorry for how awful it is; I just really wanted to get something out for you all. Well, until next time!
Rachel x
YOU ARE READING
Home is where the heart is
FanfictionJust under fifteen years ago, when he was only thirteen years old, Joe Sugg took a big step in life. His best friend, Jess, was moving away to Scotland. Their bond was so tight and the night before Jess left for Scotland, they got caught in the mome...
