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Heart Strings Chapter Twenty Four

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When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you.

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-Nathan P.O.V-

It took me a minute to work out what had just happened. Sephy had just, left… Run away… Wasn’t she kissing me back a moment ago? She was. I hadn’t imagined it-

‘Sorry,’ I looked up at Aimee as I raked a hand through my black hair, preventing my fringe from obstructing my view.

‘What?’

‘I, uh, kinda interrupted you guys, didn’t I? And-’ Aimee fiddled with her fingers.

I looked down and adjusted my legs which had begun to cramp up then forced my head against the wall, hard. ‘It wasn’t your fault. She’d have, she’d have realised what she was doing sooner or later…’ We were both silent for a moment.

‘You shouldn’t play with her, Nathan. I think Sephy really likes you, but you can’t do anything with her until she’s sorted things out with Nick. That is wrong.’

I gazed up at Aimee wide-eyed and opened my mouth to deny that I was playing with Sephy. To deny that she liked me.

And she really may not have liked me, but I was playing with her, wasn’t I? I knew she was going out with Nick. I knew she was frustrated about Adam liking her. I knew… And I kissed her. Of course she’d run. I’d run from myself.

There was another silence as I closed my mouth.

‘I should go. To talk to her, shouldn’t I?’

Aimee shook her head, ‘I don’t know… Maybe you should leave her to calm down… Let’s go find the others.’

Aimee smiled encouragingly to me but I didn’t feel any better. I could only return her a watered down version.

~x~

When we found David and Adam, David was blushing furiously. I didn’t blame him. If I was stuck under a bed with a gay guy, I’d be pretty embarrassed too. Heck, if I was under a bed with a straight guy it would be awkward!

We all gathered in Sammie’s living room again.

‘Okay, who did you find first Aimee?’ Sam wanted to know, taking charge.

‘Nathan and-’

I furrowed my eyebrows. ‘Sephy. Where is she?’ Tabby frowned too.

‘Toilet? Did you find her Aimee?’ Aimee looked at me.

‘Yeah but, she was with Nathan and-’

Tony winked at me as Sammie and Ian also looked at each other and suppressed smiles, ‘Oh!? Did you-’

‘They were kissing,’ Aimee interrupted. I blushed as all eyes turned to me and looked out of the window. ‘But then she ran off. Did anyone hear the door?’ Everyone shook their heads.

Idiot. That’s what I am. An effing idiot.

‘Okay, I guess we need to look for her, she might be upset,’ Adam said, keeping his gaze anywhere but on me. For goodness sake… I’d messed up, turned an amazing afternoon in an awkward one… I’d ruined it. ‘She must be here somewhere.’

As everyone dispersed, he caught up with me. ‘What are you doing Nathan?’

‘Wh-what do you mean?’ Adam looked at me, disappointed.

‘Why aren’t you going after her?’ My forehead creased.

‘I thought we’re all going to look for her.’

‘I heard the door. Both me and David did, but we thought it be best if you went after her on your own instead of everyone trailing after you two.’ I looked at him wide-eyed.

‘Oh. Good idea.’ Adam shook his head.

‘Whatever. Just, go. Find her. Do you know where she lives?’ I realised with a sad pang that, no, I didn’t. It was my turn to shake my head. He recited the buses to take and how to get to her house from there hastily then gave me a small push. ‘Now, go,’ he urged. I stepped forward but made no further move to leave. I stared at Adam for a moment.

‘Don’t you like her too?’

Adam scowled half playfully, ‘I’m gay, can’t you tell? She’s like my best friend.’ I looked down before catching his eyes again.

‘I was at the restaurant. I witnessed the kiss.’ Adam visibly drooped, looking drained of energy.

‘Yes. Okay? I think I love her… But she loves you-’

‘I kissed her and she ran away, what proof is that that she likes me? It’s probably closer to the opposite Adam.’

‘She ran away because she’s afraid Nathan, trust me.’ I said nothing. I couldn’t . Trust him, I mean. ‘Now go-’

‘Why are you allowing me to go for her?’ I asked, undeterred.

‘She loves you,’ Adam said too calmly. ‘I thought I established that, Nick is no good for her, and though I think she’d do better with me, well, she’d be happier with you. If you treat her right.’ I looked at the boy with respect. He was actually giving her up for her own happiness… Maybe that was something I should consider… Her happiness… ‘Listen, when you get together-’

‘When?’ I asked sceptically.

‘When, please, please, don’t hurt her.’ Adam’s expression was so sincere… He thought I would hurt her. And that hurt.

I couldn’t be trusted with her heart. None of her friends thought I could do it. No one did. Everyone was sure I was going to break her heart like every other girl. They didn’t understand.

I didn’t reply to him. I was on my way out of the door and to Sephy’s house; to her heart.

But were they right? Could I promise never to hurt Sephy? Hurting people was all I knew how to do. What I’d done for as long as I’d truly been interested in girls. I had never loved someone before.

So, I made myself a deal. I wasn’t going to force it. If Sephy didn’t want me, I would bow out gracefully –if front of her anyway—and let Adam take the stage. I would stay away and watch them together. I was going over to my dad’s for Christmas anyway. Sephy didn’t have to put up with me. She could choose.

Me, Adam or Nick.

Or none. 

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