Not What it Seems | BTS x Reader | Reverse Harem

Chapter 22 - Forget Me Not

"You have to believe me." He strung his words very carefully.

"Nothing.." he paused. "..happened."

The title of the news article suddenly reappeared before my eyes.

JIMIN BTS SCANDAL: CAUGHT SLEEPING WITH A SAESANG FAN

"Why are you telling me this?" I felt tears pooling under my eyelids.

"Because.." Jimin scratched the back of his head. I could see the conflict in his eyes. His eyebrows were pursed, and he was worried about me. "I didn't want you to get the wrong idea."

Surely this is all part of an act, right?

I let out a dry laugh, trying my hardest to mask my true feelings.

"Didnt want me to get the wrong idea?" I repeated. "Why does it matter, sunbae?"

I took a deep breath, trying my hardest to keep my composure. I could still feel my heart beating against my chest, and everything I felt was fighting to be let out.

"Jimin.. I'm nothing to you."

Meeting his eyes for first time, I saw how hurt he was. His piercing eyes searched my soul for answers before looking away and sighing.

He knew I was right.

What am I to him? I'm not his girlfriend. I don't even know if I'm his friend.

I'm just some pathetic girl that fell for him.

"Y/N.."

"Go on..! Why did Hanna stay the night then?!"

"I.. I can't say."

"I'm leaving." I was at my limit, and I felt the tears I was holding back streaming down my cheeks.

"No!" Slamming the door I had almost opened, his arm was planted on the wooden surface. He trapped me in between him, my back facing him.

When I turned around to push him away and give him a piece of my mind, I saw his face.

He was overcome by guilt, and couldn't even look at me straight in the eye.

"I'm.. not a good guy, Y/N." He stumbled over his words. I could tell this sincerity was difficult for him. "Even if I wanted to be with you.. I can't."

What?

"I just can't.."

What did he mean by 'even if he wanted to be with me'?

Why did he have to say those words?

He was physically so close to me, but his expression was distant. I didn't know what he was thinking anymore, and his words made it all the more confusing.

"I trusted you."

This time it was Jimin that laughed.

"Hah! You trust me..? Well, you shouldn't."

"I do!" I was almost yelling as I exclaimed with great determination.

"Even if I get used or hurt.. I'll always trust you." Without breaking eye contact, I continued. "I know I shouldn't.. That's why.. That's why I need to forget you."

With his free arm he grabbed mine, digging his fingers into my skin. He lowered his head to meet eyes, staring me down with the same amount of intensity I was.

"Sunbae what are you-"

"Try and forget me then."

Pulling me towards him, he crashed his lips onto mine, forcing us to kiss.

Welcoming his touch, I kissed him back for a split second before coming back to my senses.

I squirmed under his forcefulness and pushed him away. Flying out of the printing room and I ran aimlessly. Hard.

I just wanted to get out of here.

My cheeks were still blushing and sticky from my dried up tears. My chest pounding from Jimin's touch. My heart was aching. I hadn't held him in so long that every fibre of me rejoiced as he reminded me of how amazing we felt together. But it felt tainted.

It's not fair.

How could he say those things to me knowing how I felt?

What did he mean by "even if he wanted to be with me.."?

Why did he kiss me and then dare me to forget about him?

He was toying with me, I'm sure of it. He was always making me feel uncertain, hesitant even, about whether or not I could be vulnerable with him. And this was the same.

"ACK!" Rubbing my head as I had just collided with another poor individual, I squinted my eyes, wincing at the pain.

I should probably start to watch where I'm going. I can't keep bulldozing people like this.

"Are you alright?" I saw a hand outstretched to me.

Looking down, Hobi smiled at me with concerned eyes.

I took his hand and got back up, thanking him as I did.

"Sorry about that," I said, dusting off myself. "I wasn't really paying attention.."

"Yeah it doesn't seem like you've been yourself lately.."

I stayed silent at his observation. Averting my gaze as to not give away my true feelings.

"Nevermind that," he lit up once again with his signature sunshine smile. "Are you free? Our later schedules have been cancelled and we're heading back now. Why don't you come join us?"

"Oh. Umm.. will Jimin sunbae be there?" He took one good look at my swollen eyes and seemed to put two and two together (much to my dismay).

There had been so much that was going on since Jihye came back that I couldn't even keep track of who I was on good terms with anymore. I haven't spoken to Tae since our date, and neither has Yoongi since we hooked up. Adding them to the list that Namjoon and Jimin started, that's four out of the seven members.

Speaking of which, it seems Jungkook has been avoiding me recently, and I don't even know why.

Did I do something wrong?

"Nope." Hoseok's brought me back as I couldn't help but feel relieved that I didn't have to face Jimin. He turned around to start walking. "He's going out tonight. I think he's got plans with Jongin.. They'll be out late, so don't worry about him!"

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