BROOKS POV
I lie in bed, awake still as I take note that everyone around me is asleep. I couldn't tell them what had happened. Not with all of them there. I'm not ready to say anything and I probably won't ever be able to say it anyway.
The truth is,
I have a crush on jack.
I say crush because it's small, well it was, I'm trying to keep it that way but it's hard when I'm in a band with him and I see him everyday.
Rye and Mikey are the couple in the band. We can't have another one. We technically shouldn't even have one.
These past few nights I would sleep in the same bed with jack, my excuse being I felt anxious and we would hug all night.
I think he knows how I feel but I can't tell if he feels the same. We keep silent on The topic, joking about it here and there but I know it'll only stay that way.
I get panic attacks when I think about it too much. The idea of me not being able to properly kiss him and tell him how cute he's being when I really want to, is heart breaking but I'll deal with it.
We kiss on the cheek but it's a sign of friendship, close friendship, I guess?
Either way, I can't stop thinking about him even though he's right across from me I feel like we are so far away.
JACKS POV.
seeing brook like that today made me so freaked out. I'm sitting with my back facing the room as I look at the wall and contemplate the thoughts running through my head.
Why does it bother me so much when he cries? I know it's concern for my friend but it feels different.
Why do I love being near him as much as I do?
I love being with the other lads too but brook is different.
And lastly but the scariest out of all,
Why do I look at him and want to lean in?
Why do I want his arm to wrap around me and stay there?
Why do I want to talk to him until early hours of the morning about nothing interesting?
Why do I like him as much as I do?
Do I tell him how I feel?
The answer will always be no. I know I felt this way for months and my 'crush' is only getting bigger but I won't share that. It'll be a little thing my brain can fantasise about.
That is until the next time he kisses my cheek, or smiles at me, looks at me, literally breathes.
I just wish I could be with him right now.
But I can't. I never will be.
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Фанфик•ALL FICTION (NOT REAL) WRITTEN BY ME• Mikey is in a band with his closest friends, Andy, Jack, Brooklyn and Rye. He struggles with his sexuality and liking his best friend, Rye. When Rye starts acting different and being rude to Mikey he gets co...
