Lost Memories (Taehyung x Jennie) [The Final Book]

◆ Seventeen ◆

Days have passed...
We are all here in the dorm...
He was discharged yet the bandageon his head is still there.

He hasn't fully recovered yet.
Of course, he isn't...

"He can't remember me."

I made my way to the practice room once I'm done bathing. I woke up too early, as usual...since the day...he got the a car accident again...I haven't got a proper sleep.

I entered the practice room, it is still dark yet there's a source of light, the light outside the street.

It's still dawn...
Later...sun will go rise again.

I prepared the speakers...
I just want to do something that won't hurt me.

I played As If It'sYour Last...
Gonna dance and practice alone.

I looked at the mirror and watched myself while dancing.

Emotions...
Put emotions...

But as I posed the last pose...
Someone ckappes behind and I immediately turned around.

I faced the person and I was a bit surprise...
A smiling face greeted me...

"You sure is good at dancing."
             Taehyung....
Smiled at me, and gave me a glasssof water.

I'm confused for a second...
But of course...

"You're so hot, Jennie. I'm sure...if I can remember you, I can grab you by this time and do something that is unecessary."
            He teased and chuckled.

But I'm blank and frozenly looking at him...

"I shouldn't have said that...sorry."
           He looked down at the floor as he apologized for something that actually made me a bit happy inside.

Thoughts entered my mind saying...

"The last time you grabbed me unecessarily....you got hit by the car after...and if you could just know...I qould love it if you did."

I have the urge to hug him aand cry on his chest but I prevented myself and just smiled...

"Ani, ani. That's way rude but it's a compliment from myTae."
            Indirectly, I thanked that way.
I gave him a wink and he giggled a bit before answering...

"Are you really calling me Tae...everytime?"
            He asked looking at me curiously.

"Yes, and I'm calling you Taehyung whenever the situation is serious."
           I informed. And I still can manage my eyes not to tear down.

I smiled and he nodded...

"If that's the case then...what should I call you?"
           It is really hurting me, like my heart is being torn or burnt with the fact that...he really don't remember me.

"Jendeukie...your Jendeukie. But sometimes, you're calling me your lady."
            I sat on the floor. My feet felt tired for the moment.

And he sat across me.

"Jendeukie...cute."
           He played with the shoelace of my shoes while saying it...

And until now...
I need to prevent myself from crying.

"I'm sorry if...if I can't remember...I'm so stupid for getting hit by the car, right? Now, I can't remember you...though, you should be the one I'm remembering everytime since, I'm engaged with you. We are wearing same designed rings...I saw the photos on my phone too, the videos and everything..."
        He was smiling yet his eyes are not looking straight to mine...he was just playing with my shoelace...

"I saw how we loved each other...but...sorry...I really can't remember. But I'm going to try. Don't worry."
        I sobbed...suddenly, I sobbed wirh his words....

The fact and reality hit me hard now...

"He doesn't remember me...

Now, he's saying things that may turns out like he don't love me cause he can't remember me.

Taehyung-a...
Jebal...come back..."

He started panicing as I started to wipe the tears streaming down my face.

With the tears quickly flowing, it reaches my neck. It is dropping on the floor as well.

This is what we call, The Falls and the Rivers of Tears.

Taehyung immediately pulled me for a hugbut that doesn't help...

It send me more heartache...
As our body contacted each other...
But not the way they used to do.

"I-It's not your f-fault."
            While sobbing, I managed to answer with a bit of stammering.

"Shh. Shhh."
            He didn't respond...
But he started stroking my back and signaling me to not to cry.

But how am I suppose to stop?
With these? With all of these?

"Now...
I know what you felt...
With those days I can't remember you...

It hurts like hell...
Like I've been punishing for a sin that I haven't done..."

"What have I done for this to happen?"

"Is this a dream?
I wish it is a yes but as I know...it's not."

"It's hard to fight...for the memories that are gone...I can't pull that back...but you can by yourself..."

"But until when will we hope that you'll remember me? And we're not actually sure if you really can remember me. There's the possibilty that you won't...and you'll just believe that...Irene is your..."

"You can remember Irene...
Then that means...

You are inlove with her since...
You can't remember me?"

"Please...come back...

Pull your memories back and kiss me the way you are always doing...

I miss you, Taehyung...
I miss you."