Lost Memories (Taehyung x Jennie) [The Final Book]

◆ Three ◆

- Taehyung

I haven't sleep at all...
I was just looking at her everynight until dawn.

I get off from the bed early but without waking her up, I exercised and went to the kitchen to do something for her.

An hour had passed...
I brought her meal to our room but as  I entered, she's still sleeping deeply.

"I guess, you're tired."

I placed the bed table to her bed, while she's still sleeping on my bed.

I sat beside her...
She's not  bothered.
I gazed at her beauty.
Her perfectly shaped face.
She cheeks...I caressed.
I tucked the lose strands of hair behind her ears and caressed her cheeks again.

I caressed her ears which made her move a bit. She reacted and I'm sorry for accidentallly disturbing her.

Then, my fingers memorized the line of her jaw.

"I'm insanely inlove with this woman."

And I decided to lie beside her, I gently lied behind her, and I hugged her.

She moved until she got the comfortable side as I put my arms under her head and the other hand wrapping around her waist.

She turned around and leaned on my chest.

Now, she's literally awake.

"Jendeukie, I have our meal."
       I whispered.

She shrugged herself a bit and answered...

"Can I sleep all day? I'm tired, Tae."
        She asked with a weak voice.

I slightly pulled her just to look at her face.

She opened her eyes but squinting it as she looked at me.

"Windows."
        She commanded.
And I need to close the curtains.

But still, she's squinting her eyed but it was lessen than earlier.

"Wae? Gwaenchana?"
         I asked checking her temperature.

"Mm."
       She answered nodding while humming.

And I cupped her face as she answered.

"Let's go eat, Jendeukie. It would be late if you haven't eat now. And I'll be mad if you will eat late."
       I commanded sweetly.

"Arrasseo."
       Seems like she's weak but still following me.

She's wearing my white shirt, that I was wearing last night. I made her wear it cause it's cold and she's...naked.

She sat and leaned her back to the pillow next to the headboard.

She crosses her legs, Indian style.

"Here's the food."
        I smiled at her, though, she's actually looking at the food.

She started eating...
I was watching her on how she will chew and swallow.

She's so cute when she's eating.

And then...
She noticed me looking at her with an automatic smile.

She gave me a confused yet blank look.

I shook my head and smiled wider than earlier in response of 'nothing'.

"She's not yet ready...
Though...we're getting married."

"Honestly...
I feel dejected last night.
Cause...I thought she would answer...

What am I thinking?
...if she don't want to have children now, then don't. I can't force her."

My stupid tears suddenly started flowing down to my cheeks fast and I can't help it.

She noticed.me and looked at.me for seconds before asking.

"Why are you crying?"
        She held my hand.
Curiousity and worry is evident on her face.
She dropped down the spoon and cupped my face, wipping the tears off.

But as she wiped my tears off, I feel more pity...pity for myself.

"Nothing. I'm just happy."
         I stated.

"Happy? When you're crying?"
         She asked sarcasgically but still, she's sounding worried.

"Ne, I'm just happy. Memories just entered my mind and it makes me cry to see our conflicts and...those hard days...just...you already know it."
         I answered chuckling.
And I managed to stop my tears from falling.

"Maja, we've been through a lot of things but...let's just be happy. I'm happy with you, Taehyung."
      She smiled at me sweetly, her voice are sweet as chocolates and...

I felt guilty...
For asking about a child with her...

"Am I rushing?"

"Maybe she's right...
We're idols and it's too early.
Besides, we're still not married.
She got a point."

"She have that thoughtful characteristic. I really like it when she's thinking about every corners and sides of life, since I don't think too much."

I smiled at her and I leaned my forehead to her.

She caressed the back of my head and played with my hair. So relaxing...

"Honestly...
I feel dejected...
I feel rejected as she disagreed with me about having children now. But then I realized...she's just being thoughtful of every sides and corners of life.

She can't be pregnant as of now...
They just debuted a year ago and few months. If she got pregnant...their group will have a several motnhs of stop from performing which is not good..."

"Yeah...
She's right.

I'm just being...emotional and all."

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Author:

Honestly, I'm here at school.
Just done answering calculus, I've been answering this assignment since yesterday that's why I haven't updated a chapter last night. Calculus is a hard math, you know. And I need to focus on answering this thing or I'll fail.

Hope you guys understand!

Anyway, thanks for staying.
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