Lost Memories (Taehyung x Jennie) [The Final Book]

◆ Two ◆

- Taehyung

At the night...
I was just about to lie on my bed when Taehyung suddenly pulled me to a kiss.

I astumbled my feet but he catches me rught on my waits before I could fall.

His kiss was deep.
Giving me a sign that he wants something.

And afterwards...
He lifted me...

Brought me to his bed and...

I knew it already.
But I don't care...I don't bother stoping.
I like it, anyway.

"Saranghae."
      He whispered before placing kisses on my jaw, neck and collar bone.

I let out a gaso of ait as he did and answered...

"Nado, Tae."

And before I could know, we're both nake and he's going to start...

As he started...
Once again, I moaned...
I'm a but of messy while kissing him.
I can't ease, it's painful yet...in a pleasurable way.

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After having it with him...
I can feel his arms wrapping aroung my waits and from my shoulder.

He kissed my nape as he lied behind me.

I can feel his deep breathing, seems like he's catching the air.

"I'm...tired."

I'm tired of what he did just now.
I'm a little shaking...

"Let's go sleep, my Jendeukie?"
         He asked...

"Mm."
          I hummed and nodded, closing my eyes, too sleepy already.

But when I was about to drowz to dreamland...

"Jendeukie, jakaman...I'm just going to ask something."
        I immediately opened my eyes and waited for what he was going to ask...

He lifted his head and looked at me so I tilted my head a bit to face him....

"Do you...feel like having a child...now? Cause...I want one."
        He asked and informed while smiling sweetly. And I felt his hand that is wrapped around my waist held my hand before I could answer.

But...
My forehead creases as I composed the meaning of twhat he just said.

"Tae..."
        I can't answer, thinking that he might feel dejected but...I need to explain that...

"We still can't have...a child...now."
       His smiled faded as he heard me answer.

"Ani, ani. Gwaenchana. I-I don't m-mean to...to...to...It's fine."
       He nodded on his own and he smiled at me cutely.

"Let's forget that and let's go back to sleep."
        He suggested and lied first.

And I followed lying in his arms again.

But I can hear him...
He sniffed which is not necessary...
Uncommonly, I can hear him sobbing a bit.

I sat up immediately and looked at him, my one hand is holding the blanket to coveer my naked body and I looked at him...

"Jinja...Taehyung."
        And he looked at me, his eyes are watery and red.

"Wae?"
         He asked, and sat up as well to face me properly.

I just looked at him as he asked...
I gazed to his red and watery eyes.

And answered with my voice toning a bit high, just to emphasize the words for him to understand I'm just concerned...

"It's not because I don' like. What am I saying, Taehyung is that we still can't have cause we are idols. Plus, we're still not married, what will public think? If we got a child while our marriage is still next year? Besides that, we're idols. We still need to focus on it, we both have several of works to do before what we wants. I do really love to have a child with you, perhaps, children. But not now."
         My brows furrowed as I can see that there are some tears falling down from his eyes to his cheeks.

"Mianhe."
         Automatically, I apologized.

"But you shouldn't be dejected, so, stop crying."
          I added and looked at him.

"Ani. Haha, I'm not crying because of that."
          He answered with a chuckle.

Though, I know he's lying.

"I'm crying out of happiness. After lying with you again, memories flashed to my memories, our days of conflicts, those hard days...when we are fighting so hard and...protecting each other...willing to die for each other...I'm happy that I am with you now...without any interruptions. This is what we want."
        He cupped my faced and pecked a kiss on my forehead after his words.

I need to let his lies pass just this now.
I know he felt dejected earlier and even now....but if we tackle it now, I know he's going to cry...I know him well.

I closed my eyes as he cupped my face, warming it with his hands.

"Saranghae, Jendeukie.

And...

Sorry for asking for a child t, though, I know...we still can't have.

I'll wait."
       And after that statement, I saw a smiled from him...a genuine smile but has a pain.

"I do really love to have a child with you...

It's just that we can't now."

"Mianhe."