One Shots

What about us

"Is it my fault? Is it you or is it me? Is this goodbye or is this what we want us to be? What about the things that we have shared?"

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Masarap magmahal.

Oo, tama sila. Masarap nga magmahal not until everything messed up. Masaya sa kung masaya, pero hanggang saan? Hanggang kailan? Kaya mo bang panindigan? Kaya mo bang panatilihin hanggang wakas?

There are things in life na sobrang hirap intindihin. There are things rn na no explanations. There are things na you'll just leave it hanging instead of getting stressed about it.

But there are some things that no matter what you do, you won't get an answer. It may be answerable by yes or no but you just won't get the answer; because you don't like the answer anyway.

It's like, you'll fall for a person who can't be yours. And that person will fall for another. A domino effect indeed.

I can still vividly imagine how we met. How our eyes met, how your smile got my attention. I still clearly remember how we got along. It wasn't a smooth journey for us.. we didn't got along easily but as time goes by, we've learned how to stand besides each other. We've learned how to protect each other at all costs. We've learned how to love each other unconditionally.

But, what happened? What happened to us?

Why did you left me hanging? Why did you left me having no one beside me? Why did you left me when I needed you the most?

You were the first one who I have been looking for whenever I got recognition. You were the first one whom I look up to whenever I'm having a bad day. You were the first one whom I am waiting to make me feel safe and sound. You were the first one whom I wanted to celebrate my success with.

Is it my fault that everything between us got messed up? Is it you or is it me? Sobrang gusto kong i-confront ka. Pero para saan? For you to pity me? Sobrang sakit. Sobrang sakit na binaliwala mo nalang ako bigla.

Every promises you made was already broken. Every promises we've made turned into dust. Every promises we've made turned into daggers that killed my heart a million times.

I won't say my goodbye for now, maybe a year or two? I don't know. But as long as I can bear the pain, I will hold it. Not against you but for me to get even better. To be the better version of myself.

I looked up at the sky and smiled. I may still love you dearly, but I know, someday ako na mismo ang magpapalaya sa'yo, Edward. I don't regret falling inlove with you, I am still grateful for everything you have done for me and for all the lesson I have learned from you and from loving you.

But for now, me as Kisses who loves you dearly is now officially singning off in your life. Wishing you nothing but the best, Edward Barber.