One Shots

Thinking of you

"'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you, thinking of you. What you would do if you were the one who was spending the night? Oh I wish that I was looking into your eyes."  

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I was looking at an old photo album. It was me and him; this was given to me when we celebrated our second anniversary. We were smiling like there's no tomorrow.

The first photo was when we were in Acropolis club in Davao to celebrate Yong's birthday. He's so stubborn and hard headed that's why he got so drunk.

The second photo was when he was so grumpy for no apparent reason other than the fact that he is grumpy naman talaga.

He is the type of person na, who'll complain about everything. As in, everything! Like the weather, people, music or even about me whom I never got any idea why and I just have to deal with it.

There were days when he shuts everyone, he'll ignore me because he is tired of pretending he is okay.

There were days na he cried because he is not happy anymore. I had to shut up because I'm not allowed to ask so I'll just let him cry and let myself to hear his tantrums; there are days when he'll yells at everyone for no reason and will apologize two seconds later.

He's a pain in the ass and pushes my buttons always and when he knew na napipikon na ako, he'll make lambing na and tell me how much he loves me.

"Kisses!"

I was pulled back into the reality when I heard him.

"Hey," I greeted him.

"What's up? I missed you, babe." He said and kissed my forehead.

"Nothing really important." I said.

"Wanna go somewhere?" He asked.

I was so hesitant to say yes but I am also hesitant to say no. I saw how he wants me to say yes.

"Y-yeah. Sure." I said.

"Great!" He happily said. "Let's go?"

He grabbed my hands and dragged me inside his car.

I looked at him as he was seriously driving. He was the guy who was there for me when I was feeling low.

"Is there any problem, babe?" He asked and looked at me.

Umiling lang ako. "Wala. Eyes on the road, Donny."

Yes, you read it right. I'm officially dating the one and only Donny Pangilinan for almost a year now.

After everything I've been through, I decided on opening my heart again. And somehow, I was so happy that I chose to be with Donny.

We went to Christian and Vivoree's newly open restaurant. Yep, after Christian and Vivoree earned enough money they chose to open a restaurant nalang kaysa sa ituloy ang pag-aartista.

"Welcome to Lucky Cuisine!" A waitress said.

Christian and Vivoree named it Lucky Cuisine to keep our memories. PBB Lucky Season 7. That's where we all met.

"Kisses!!" Vivoree exclaimed when she saw me. "Oh, hi Donny!"

"Hi, Vive!" Donny greeted her. "So, busy huh?"

"Maraming costumer eh." Natatawang wika ni Vive.

Donny chuckles. "Can you join us?"

"Yeah, sure. But maya maya ah?" Ani Vive. "Aayusin ko na kakainin natin."

And Vivoree left us. Donny and I sat on the last table. Ayaw rin kasi niyang makaagaw ng pansin.

I looked around and saw the freedom wall of Lucky Cuisine. There were dedication letters and pictures. I saw our group picture.

Our picture.

Everything was still clear on my mind. His jokes during times when we should probably be serious and him making banats for me to shut up.

Sometimes I wonder where he gets all his confidence. Like, he is a walking contradiction; but he was my everything.

Because, there were days that we need him to make decision for me, for us, he'll refuse and say "I don't know" until I give up and decide for us.

"Babe, I'll go to the CR lang." Donny said and kissed my forehead.

I nodded as an answer.

"You're being unfair, Kisses."

Vivoree said as she was sitting down beside me. I looked at her.

"You're with Donny but your thinking about him." She said.

"No, I wasn't." I denied. "I was thinking about something."

"Don't lie, Kisses." She said. "Maybe Donny doesn't say anything but I'm sure he noticed it."

I sighed. "Vive, what should I do?"

"Move on, Kisses." She said like it was the easiest thing to do. "Be fair with Donny."

I looked at her. "Sana ganoon kadali no?"

Vive smiled at me. "Alam kong hindi kasi ang tagal ng pinagsamahan niyo. Pero eto na kasi tayo e, tinalikuran nila tayo para sa mga pangarap nila."

I tried to smile at her. "Diba dapat natin silang intindihin kasi pangarap naman talaga nila 'to?"

"Pangarap ni ate May? Oo. Naiintindihan ko. Pero ang traydurin ka? Kisses, mali. Sobrang mali."

"Pero kasalanan ko diba? Kung sanang sinaway ko mga fans ko baka di tayo umabot sa ganito."

"Sawayin mo o hindi, aabot talaga tayo sa ganito. Ang laki na ng agwat mo sa amin umpisa palang Kisses. Isa ka sa mga may mabubuting puso noon kaya sobra kang pinagpala." Ani Vive. "Pero inabuso naman ng iba. Tinuring mong kaibigan pero ikaw ba tinuring nilang kaibigan? Hindi diba? Kasi mismong bestfriend mo tinraydor ka para sa sarili niya."

I held Vive's hand. "Wag mo ng alalahanin pa 'yon, Vive. Atleast ngayon, we still have each other back."

She smiled at me. "Alam ko. At ang swerte ko kaya kasi tinalikuran ka ni ate May tapos ako na naging bestfriend mo."

I laughed at Vive's remark. Our lunch was served and Donny sat infront of me.

"You know, I heard from someone that you might have reunion?" Donny said.

Vive and I stopped for a minute.

"Aren't you excited to see your batchmates?" Donny asked.

I tried to smile. "O-of course, we are. Di ba, Vive?"

"A-ah? O-oo naman." Hilaw na tawa ang binigay ni Vive.

Donny looked at me like he was askinh if we're okay. I nodded at him.

I'll see him. I know sooner or later, we'll cross our paths again. Kamusta na kaya siya? Maayos na kaya buhay niya? Sana ay magkaroon naman kami ng pagkakataon para makapagusap man lang. Ni wala kaming maayos na closure dahil lagi nalang nauuwi sa sagutan kapag ganoon.

I shook my head lightly. Ugh, Kisses! Vive was right. You are being unfair to Donny! Gosh, why would you wanted to be with the one who chose to hurt you?

I sighed. Here I am, always thinking of him. Even if I have the most caring, loyal and amazing guy.

How can I ever moved on to someone who gave me so much memory? I held my right chest and closed my eyes, I wish that I was looking into your eyes.