One Shots

Kailan kaya

Continuation of Say you'll never go

"Darating kaya ang oras na mundo natin ay mag-isa? Darating kaya ang oras na magkahawak ang ating kamay?"

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I did what I thought I had to. I never told you the things you wanted to hear; maybe you felt it but I never confirmed nor denied it.

I wanted you to fight for me, but I wasn't ready to fight for what we have. I am coward for turning my back on you. But what can I do? Everyone sees you growing with ate May. I won't be a hindrance on your success.

I did what they told me to do. To leave you, to let you grow without me. I ignored you for days.. the days, turned to weeks, and weeks turned to months. I've been doing my best to ignore you.

But, I... I always make time to read all your messages to me. I just can't.. I'm too scared of replying on you. I might go back to you and be a hindrance on your dreams.

I met someone who totally understands me. I told him everything, he listens and told me some advices. Everyone thought that we were a couple or even we can be a good couple. But no, we had the same situation. He loves someone who he can't call his own. How cruel life can be?

I learned from him that no matter how long you will wait for someone, if it's true love, then it's worth it. If not, you'll meet someone along the away. But, for me? I know, if I meet someone and then I'll fall? It would be unfair for him.. because I know to myself that I can't love him the same intensity as I gave to my first love.

I chuckled. Wow, first love. They said that first love never dies. Maybe yes, maybe not. I don't know. I still got a long way to go to meet the love of my life... or I already met him?

I kept asking myself, how long? How long should I sacrifice? How long should I stop myself on having him by my side? How long should I cry to make myself asleep? Or when? When will it be us? When will it be me and him?

I saw you leaning on the wall. I wanted to stare at you but too late, you're already staring at me. I avoided it, but I knew to myself that you won't.

My knees are getting jelly, god. Can you stop staring? Can you stop? So that I can be the one to stare at you?

I wanted to tell you that everything you do, I'll always be here for you. I'm cheering miles away from you. I may not be physically there, but know that I will always be in your heart.

I, Kirsten Danielle Delavin, will always love you no matter how long, no matter what happens. I will always be your Kisses, and you will always be my Superman, Edward John Barber. You're my dead end, so make it fast, baby. You know where to find me.